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Post by luke888 on Jul 19, 2022 10:22:37 GMT -6
2022 AD
Yom Shlishi (Day After Yom Shani, which is the Day After Lord's Day), July 19, 2022 AD-
Today is the first day in writing in these brand-new journals. Recently I put both a Tumblr and a Twitter shortcut on my laptop's homescreen.
This morning I played RAID Shadow Legends, both fighting and winning in the Arena five times.
I read The Star Wars Chapters I -III in canon fanfic and was very impressed by how clearly and accurately I told the first part of the Star Wars story. I am wondering how I will continue the tale.
I think I will take a second nap. Joy called me earlier to ask me what Rx I took as part of my Disability Determination. They want observations about me from someone who knows me, thus Joy. I gave my letter I got from them to Haley my Case Manager this morning before we watched Star Wars: The Force Awakens for several minutes.
I watched a little of The Star of Bethlehem by Gravitas today. Very good stuff.
I napped out 'til 4 PM, and ate a peanut bu t ter and jelly sandwich for supper. In about an hour I need to Skype Pastor Pete and show him me taking my pills. I am on my front porch. I need water.
I am about to type Diaries and the Truth about Weed book.
10:34 PM I was in the middle of typing Diaries on my front porch when Denita and Jo's sister pulled up in a car and took me and my laundry to Pastor Pete's house where I had a hotdog, a hamburger, potato salad, Macaroni and cheese, popcorn and dessert and we watched Sing 2.
I went out and watched the sunset in the country later.
When I got home, I put my clean clothes away and sat down to type in my Diary. Now I'm going to bed.
I got up and I messed up, then went back to bed.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 20, 2022 0:59:37 GMT -6
Woden's Day, July Twentieth, AD 2022-
"The state in which you think you're going to lose your soul and you feel you're not forgiven yet is called regret."
"Remember that when you ask forgiveness, nay, beg forgiveness for your sins, I forgive you instantly and you cannot lose your soul."
"I the Lord created your body both the spiritual and the physical parts of it so I know how it works."
"Why don't you get up and watch TV or write Star Wars if your regret prevents you from sleeping."
"Remember all those endless fantasies you used to have about living the life you live right now--about having instant access to all the information you could ever want??"
I downloaded the Computer Programming Program Python and am learning how to use it through a YouTube Tutorial made about two years ago. The program has advanced and become much more simplified and user friendly since the video was made.
3:28 AM Dad learned COBOL at Mott College and taught me some QBASIC. I learned what a FOR=NEXT loop was and some other things. But the complexities I could never learn before. Now Python is becoming a little too complex for me to wrap my brain around it. But I may try some more later. No one said learning any form of computer programming would be a piece of cake. It's easier to learn a language.
11:58 AM I practiced some more Python coding and am watching Hardy Boys. I watched Wanted Dead or Alive. I watched The Rifleman. I watched Bob Ross.
I talked on the Old Republic discord server Star Command voice chat, then played my Blakefettlee and Grik Spiceminer characters on Old Republic. On my Blakefettlee character I joined Trade Federation, Star Command's Imperial side Guild.
Dear Diary, it is so good to have all of my dirty clothes clean and to be in fresh clean clothes this morning.
I couldn't figure out Python so I'm stepping back again for now and playing Clash of Clans and watching Star Wars Battlefront II streams. My cellphone has 100% charge now. It had 30% charge when I was watching Hardy Boys. It is 4:20 PM. Paul Ludy will be picking me up for Church at 6:30 tonight.
I'm listening to a Fox News Podcast as I play Clash of Clans.
I unlocked a gem mine on my island.
Dear Diary, Pastor Pete gave me my clean towels back as I took my pills in front of him and suggested maybe that since he knew I was taking them now, maybe someone could call me and remind me to take them from now on.
I continued to watch SW: Battlefront, read part of an article on the World since 9/11 in Tomorrow's World Magazine intending to renew my subscription and get a booklet on the veracity of the Bible over the phone, but the office was closed because it was after 5 pm. Then, continuing to watch Battlefront, I typed a little of How The Lord Would Have Us Think And Feel About Zion by Earl Curry.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 21, 2022 0:12:37 GMT -6
THURSDAY, JULY 21, CE 2022
When I was about 1 or 2 in my crib, I saw ghastly demonic faces on the wall. This manifestation of a familiar spirit later became my unrighteous hopes, unrighteous dreams and unrighteous desires, porn, fears and seducing spirits, and delusions.
Last night about high 10 PM I saw a demonic face and commanded it to leave in the name of Jesus. This was after I had started writing my delusions out of my old Diaries. But I will struggle more in the future because I still desire to look at porn.
3:10 AM After I fell and took a shower, I slept on my couch but my human spirit was wide awake twice, thinking.
3:43 AM The fourth time, I got up, my spirit thought, and I turned blue, or that's the way I perceived it.
LAST NIGHT God Himself came to me and told me to REPENT, lest he smite me with a cursing and not a blessing.
CHURCH was AWESOME last night! We had a beautiful prayer and testimony meeting.
I slept all day and then went to Rick's, who bought me an X-Tra Large Dr. Pepper. I played part of Star Wars Episode 12: Rise of The Jedi using my read aloud Chrome plugin for him.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 22, 2022 0:49:43 GMT -6
Friday, July 22, 2022 CE--
Discord Messages I posted in General Chat in Star Command discord server:
BrentKoiV(GrikSpiceminer)NoLegcy — Today at 1:32 AM
Watching Newsmax, Robocop 3 and a Weather Underground Documentary. I can switch tracks in my mind rapidly and pay attention to up to 3 things at once
2:05 AM Robocop 3 is over. Rick thought "It wasn't bad."
2:54 a.m. @ heimat My laptop is 18% charged. My phone is 44% charged. I'm done watching what I watched of the Weather Underground Documentary and Newsmax is still on.
I accidentally left my black sun and moon mouse at Rick's so instead of calling him and bothering him, I'm using Joy's hot pink and black mouse instead. I'll go pick up my black sun and moon mouse another day when I return Rick's white dress shirt to him.
Rick put me on the spot, forcing me to think tonight when he asked me to define Communism. I said it was a system of government or an idea leading to a system of government where you make money, not for yourself and others, but only for others, and where the government tells you where to work instead of you choosing for yourself where to work. Later I added and we discussed how it is a form of physical and mental slavery and often suppresses religion. Rick said Socialism wasn't the same thing as Communism. He said it can be a step to it and I said it was a step to it. Later I said that Communism wasn't a victimless system of government. We also discussed the Black Panthers, Charles Manson and whether or not Martin Luther King, Jr. was a good man (he wasn't). I talked about how Trump didn't used to be a righteous man but became a righteous man. Rick mentioned how China had elements of Democracy in it. I said back to him, Yeah, just the parts of it that suit them.
3:07 AM Now I'm watching a Documentary on the 1970's on Newsmax and am about to watch Stinchfield on Youtube.
I watched a video about how villains are becoming weaker in cinema and a Star Wars fanfilm called Dark Times and checked some of my email and participated in Quora.com and now will watch Stinchfield.
It's been a strange July. Strange July. It will be a hypnotic November. Oh, Christmas.
I ate tuna and noodles for supper yesterday with mac and cheese box noodles.
I called Pastor Pete and took my pills. He trusted me yesterday that I was telling the truth about taking them.
I watched half the Obi-Wan Kenobi series a few days ago. I may watch the other half again after The 70's: Decade of Disruption on Newsmax TV.
The People's Temple and Jim Jones' grape Kool-Aid, Black September, the Children of God's 'hookers for Jesus' destroying young girls' lives, the Women's Liberation Movement, the Palestinian Liberation Movement, early LBGTQ+ groups, so many faces of evil.
4:06 AM "Mr. Gorbachov, Open This Gate! Tear down this Wall!" The 1980's Decade of Decision is on on Newsmax. I'm watching it. And Stinchfield.
I had no idea Fat Albert and the Cosby Kids was an 80's thing. I had always thought it was a 70's thing.
Reaganonmics caused an Econmic Boom? ? ? ? ? ? Dad always taught me it destroyed our economy!!!!
Mark Chapman read The Catcher In The Rye and it made him want to kill John Lennon? ? ? ? I read Catcher In The Rye in high school and loved it and it didn't make me want to kill anyone!!!!
I want to call Christina at McDonald's later this morning and ask her if I can talk to her Boss Rob sometime and see if I can finally get more job hours. I'm tired of being without job hours and I feel I'm stable on my meds and ready to return to the workforce.
4:15 a.m. My phone has 47% charge and my computer has 95% charge and now I'll watch Stinchfield.
Today I learned the difference between militarism and militarization. Militarism is evil. Militarization can be good or evil depending upon how it is used.
The late 1980's: Holes in the Sky. From the Red Sky Prophecy.
Although Socialism, Communism and Fascism are evil, McCarthyism was evil also. As witchraft is very real yet the witchhunts in Salem Massachussetts and the worse ones in Europe were evil also, McCarthyism was a modern day witchhunt. Speaking of witchhunts, this is the third Trump Witchhunt so far, this one about his supposed Jan. 6 crimes. O Lord, may it not stand. May it not come to pass. Amen.
Now Grant Stinchfield is talking to a man from the NRA about the freedom of the Constitutional Right to Bear Arms and the way they are circumventing it in the State of New York, moving towards Socialism (because when they take our guns our Bibles are next) on my telephone right now.
After Stinchfield, I will watch Kenneth W. Hagin, followed by Kenneth Copeland, followed by Joseph F. Smith's Brazil Plates Testimony.
They said something untrue on Stinchfield when they said the right to bear arms wasn't always a partisan issue. Taking away that right was always a partisan issue in every country where that right is abrogated.
I downloaded and signed up for Rumble, and also downloaded The Epoch Times and PragerU Apps on my Smart Telephone.
Kenneth Hagin only believed in Revelation from the Word of God. I believe in Revelation from the Word of God and in Revelation from Heaven.
I'm passively listening to Das Kästchen again. My newest YouTube account reminded me to.
Just knowledge isn't enough. Knowledge acted upon is what counts. Satan tries to suppress or obfuscate the Truth or the knowledge.
It's not just the Truth that makes you free. It's Knowledge of the Truth and Acting on the Truth that makes you free.
The Devil recognizes Authority.
The difference between power and authority:
A traffic cop standing in front of a line of traffic putting his hand up doesn't have the power to stop those cars but he has the authority.
While I was in the middle of listening to Kenneth W. Hagin, I remembered that Eric Schmitt or someone else was called a rubber stamp for Biden while Greitens was an abuser, and I asked Google why they say Eric Schmitt was a rubber stamp for Biden. I came up with zilch, and also a definition of 'rubber stamp' in politics, but my research was not fruitless at all, for I found a Wikipedia article about Betsy DeVas, whom I found out resigned as Secretary of Education before her term was up because in a letter she wrote to trump she accused him of inciting the violence on Jan. 6 caused by Antifah, Soros and his bused in thugs and other misinformed and misled troublemakers more than likely. So I googled just what Trump's exact words were on January 6, and found the entire speech he gave that day, which I am watching now and have taken notes on.
Here are my notes:
The American People will not take this anymore.
The election was stolen.
They did a good job last night.
We will never give up. We will never concede.
We will not take it anymore.
We will stop the steal.
I will lay out evidence for the win.
Joe: 80 million votes? No.
Never been anything like that.
Third world country elections are more honest.
We will not let them silence your voices.
Crowd chants 'Fight For Trump' (Trump did not know what they would do)
When they chanted that, he thanked police for doing a great job--meant he wanted law and order. He asked them to let police come up.
Hopes Mike Pence does the right thing. States want to revote. Got defrauded. Want to recertify.
All Pence has to do is send it back to the States.
Crowd chanted "We love Trump"
We will not take the name off the Washington Monument.
Signed into law cancel our heroes go to jail for ten years. It all stopped.
We still have Congressional Seats under review.
It's out of control.
They're using the Pandemic as an excuse to defraud (the election system).
Jim Jordan is out there fighting.
If this happened to the Democrats, there'd be hell all over the country. You're stronger. You're smarter. You're not the ones who tear down this nation.
(Does this sound like he's encouraging violence, or discouraging it!)
Joe Biden said I want to get rid of America First Policy.
Get them to fight. And if they don't fight we have to Primary the he-- out of the ones who don't fight.
(That's what he means by 'Fight'.)
"Explosions of bull----" caused audience to scream and chant "bull----."
We look at the facts--and our election was so corrupt that we've never seen anything like it in (the history of elections).
Suppresses thought. Suppresses speech.
No third world country would even attempt to try what we caught them doing.
If Mike Pence doesn't come through for us, it be "a sad day for our country."
"We're going to walk down to the Capitol and cheer on our brave Senators and (probably won't cheer on the ones who are not strong)....Demand that they.....to peacefully and patriotically make your voice heard.
Our country has been under siege for a long time.
We created Space Force.
Our Military has been entirely rebuilt........................("in three years. People said it could not be done")
Right to Try.
We took care of our vets.-we got accountability done.
Now we have the right to fire bad people in the VA.
The VA Accountability Act.
You couldn't do that before.
"Now we're out here fighting"
(He meant a peaceful march!)
With only 3 of the 7 States in question, we win the Presidency of the United States.
Vote was illegally gotten.
It took them 4 years to devise this rig..
Change the votes--10,000 in Michigan.
You're leadership has led you down the tubes.
China totally destroyed these people.
You gotta let people live.
You gotta do the right thing.
The Media asserts that there is no evidence of fraud.
We defeated the ISIS Caliphate.
He laid out a list of proofs that the election was stolen.
We will march down Pennsylvania Avenue and take back our Capital.
(As defined above (people aren't stupid enough to forget what he just said in the same speech but the Media seems to think we are) he meant a peaceful march to encourage the strong Senators on Capitol Hill to do the right thing, in Hopes that the election results would be turned over to the States by Mike Pence and vetoed, not the violence that Trump had no control over that was just misguided people being stupid, thugs and ruffians, bought and paid for by Soros and Antifah!)
I shared the video on Twitter.
I am watching a Grace For Purpose video, Warning for His Children.
God is not to be mocked.
God hates sin.
We think we can take chances on his kindness and mercy, his Grace and Love, but we forget the justice and judgment, the anger and severity, the jealousy and fierceness, the fear and terror of God.
We need to repent now. We need to repent before the storm comes and sweeps us away!!
8:24 PM CDT I called Christina at McDonald's and asked if I could have a meeting with her and Rob about me getting more hours. I told her I was a lot more stable on my meds and I apologized to her for preaching at McDonald's and told her there were probably some other things I shouldn't have said or done there. She said she would call Rob and probably get back to me around Monday or so.
I turned The Epoch Times App onto a special on what really happened January 6, and shared it on Twitter.
9:05 AM I ate a bowl of Tasteeos and took out my trash. I had a discussion about the Work in Brazil with Joy.
I'm going to bed now.
I called Paul Ludy today. If Mark Strychacz is available, they will come out today and they will cast out my familiar spirit by the power of the Spirit of God. The power of any other spirit cannot even be compared to the matchless infinite Endless eternal power of any big G God (for they are all in some way Spirits) or the Spirit of the Living God. It is only limited by our unbelief. Howbeit this unbelief cometh not out but by prayer and fasting.
God finally came to me and told me the reason that my website gets virtually no signups and postings. Mormons or people of the Restoration faith are generally taught that Star Wars is taboo, while Believers who are not Mormons are generally taught that Mormonism is taboo, so it's a seesaw effect, and atheists and agnostics get turned off by the religious aspects of my site. But not to worry: The time for my website to prosper will come soon.
Paul Ludy just called. He and Mark Strychacz should be here at 6 PM today.
I told Joy today over the phone that I was a Member of the Church.
A spiritual giant passed away today. Vernon F. Darling, who gave me my Special Blessing passed into the eternal world about an hour or so ago. I didn't want to let him go. I asked the Lord to comfort me and read and hilighted my Patriarchal Blessing the Father gave me through him. When I lay down, the Lord comforted me by saying that we think this life is the be all and end all and we don't look at what's ahead. Then he discussed with me what I want out of this life and told me the truth about why people were not joining and posting on my site.
10:22 AM The Real Story of What Happened on January 6 by The Epoch Times is now over. I took a short nap that was probably longer than I realized.
10:39 AM After reviewing and correcting today's Journal/Diary/Log/1'st Chronicle entry, I am going back to bed, probably for a long while.
I got up around 11:20 AM or so, changed into clean clothes, got out my Monopoly game out of my closet, which gave me an incentive to clear off my dining area table. Upon doing this, I remembered that I wanted to renew my Subscription to Tomorrow's World Magazine, so I did, and also ordered the books The Bible: Fact Or Fiction and another copy of Principles of Health. I found out that I have already ordered Marijuana: What They aren't Telling you three times and thus cannot order it again, but fortunately I recently found my only copy.
About 1:10 PM I finally finished clearing off my dining area table. I put in the disc Hymns of the Restoration in my Radio, a disc which used to be defective, but I tapped the CD player three times and said you will work in the name of Jesus! and the disc played!!!! Praise Jesus! Glory be to the Father!
Now I am listening to Kenneth Copeland and drinking water because the Kenneth W. Hagin video I chose ended.
I need to call the library and see if the Anthology of Music is in. Then I need to call Rick so I can go over to his house give him his shirt back and pick up my mouse.
I put on David Klinkenburg-The Carol of Emmanuel CD and am listening to another Kenneth Copeland video.
My new gaming and streaming rules, per God (and he reminded me when I failed to write them down when he first told me them):
*Limit gaming and streaming to 2 hours/day.
*Limit Star Wars to 4 hours per day.
* If Gaming includes Star Wars: The Old Republic, I can still have 4 hours of Star Wars daily.
2:26 PM I finally fully set up my Monopoly game after reading from Og Mandino's A Better Way To Live, and prayed in faith that God would send someone to play Monopoly with me.
I am to keep it set up until the person comes.
3:33 PM Approx. 1 hour of Star Wars.
LOTR Theology
Istari
Low-level angels
Gandalf Radagast Saruman
Sacred Flame-The Force
Ern-God
Valar-Guardians of this world.
Melkor-Lucifer. His melody was discordant.
3:43 PM 1 H 1 minute of SW.
A Method of learning:
1. Context-Broadening 2. Dopamine Priming 3. Singular Deep Dive 4. Challenge Sandwich 5. Getting Broody 6. Fake Deadlines
*I want to take up painting.
*I ought to give Stephen King's writing routine a try.
Don't skimp on the morning multivitamin!
"If you are not completely embarrassed by the person you were twelve months ago, then you haven't grown enough."
I am very embarrassed by the person I was even two months ago!
For scheduling:
The less structure there is, the better. - Elizabeth Filips.
I got inspiration on 7/22/2022 from Elizabeth Filips' on YouTube 2 months ago: How I Consistently Study with a full time Job: My scheduling formula. I want to hear it. It is 5:00 PM.
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Add a rewards system! (For learning and production) Don't forget to plan my meals.
God is moulding my character. I am the clay. God is the Potter.
Debbie Wood commented on a video: (7 months ago) ....HE who is Mighty, hath done great things for me....
A wife should never question and argue with her husband in front of the kids. It is stealing her husband's respect.
"It's never too late to instill Godly principles to your child"- Rhonda Stoppe
"...Kids pick up on hypocrisy early on...."-Lina K 7 months ago.
Never raise your kids for what people think of you."
I had the evil spirit or spirits cast out.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 23, 2022 7:35:36 GMT -6
SABBATH, DAY AFTER FRIDAY, JULY 23, 2022 CE-
Yesterday I started reading Mekhilta d'Rabbi Yishmael- Sefaria.
Last night I was at Rick's and watched the end of a re-run of a Chiefs Playoff game from last year that the Chiefs won against the Buffalo Bills in Overtime.
Right now I am asking Pokemon Soldier to evaluate the three Star Wars stories I sent her.
I found my black Sun moon and stars mouse last night when I got home from Rick's. It was right there in my backpack! I could have been certain that last time I had looked in that same pocket, it wasn't there!
Then I fed the cat outside with the dry catfood Rick had given me, at Rick's behest.
My Spotify Playlist:
1. Goodbye Yellow Brick Road Artist: Elton John Album: Goodbye Yellow Brick Road (Remastered, 2014)
2. I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For Artist: U2 Album: The Joshua Tree (Super Deluxe)
3. All Star Artist: Smash Mouth Album: Astro Lounge
4. Sing Allelulia To The Lord Artist: Marilla Ness Album: Love Beyond Measure
5. He's The Light Artist: 2'nd Chapter of Acts Album: Night Light
6. Let It Be Artist: The Beatles Album: All The Best
7. Turn! Turn! Turn! (To Everything There Is A Season) Artist: The Byrds Album: Turn! Turn! Turn!
8. Live And Let Die Artist: Paul McCartney, Wings Album: All The Best
9. Eye of The Tiger Artist: Survivor Album: Rocky IV
10. Touch of Faith Artist: Joy Williams Album: Joy Williams
11. Rey's Theme Composer: John Williams Album: Star Wars: The Force Awakens (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
12. Ode To Joy Composer: Ludwig van Beethoven Album: Classical Best Of
13. Lights Shine Bright Artist: TobyMac, Hollyn Album: This Is Not A Test
14. Shenandoah Artist: Arlo Guthrie Album: Son of the Wind
15. What A Wonderful World Artist: Louis Armstrong Album: What A Wonderful World
16. My Savior My God Artist: Aaron Shust Album: Anything Worth Saying
17. I Am Not Skilled To Understand Artist: Welcome Wagon Album: Purity of Heart Is To Will One Thing
18. How You Live Artist: Point of Grace Album: How You Live (Deluxe Edition)
19. Holy Holy Holy Artist: Audrey Assad Album: Inheritance
20. Don't Worry, Be Happy Bobby McFerrin Album: Simple Pleasures
21. Don't You Worry About A Thing Artist: Tori Kelly Album: Sing (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Spotify played a wicked sex u al ly themed song between Songs 18 and 19 that I couldn't even shut off. It couldn't be paused or stopped.
Between 19 and 20 two songs played, one bad, one good. The Good one became Song 20.
After 21 the evil sex u al song came on again, the same one that came on earlier.
After that Don't Worry, Be Happy came on again.
Then, Honey, Sugar Sugar You Are My Candy Girl, then Bless The Lord O My Soul came on. I am very glad that second song came on!
Pastor Pete Skyped me earlier and I set up my pills in their pillbox and took them in front of him. I told Pastor Pete that even if he gets someone to call me to remind me to take my pills daily, I still need to Skype him every Sabbath (day before Lord's Day) so he can make sure that I am putting my pills into my pill minder, because I don't want to slip back into taking them out of the bottles, because that's how I mess up.
An iffy song came on, and I found a way to pause additional songs to my playlist, paused it, will close Spotify for now.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 24, 2022 2:20:56 GMT -6
Lord's Day, July 24, 2022 Common Era-
When Mark and Paul cast the demon(s) out of me, Mark told me that if they come back, I have the power to cast them out.
Last night I resisted and resisted going back to porn but eventually satan overpowered me twice. The second time I just walked right into it. At 3 AM some demons manifested in my room and I rebuked them in the name of Jesus Christ. If Satan hasn't given up on me yet, I must be doing something right.
I know exactly why "the universe won't let me forget Maggie". For years, through fantasy, daydreaming and witchcraft I have been manifesting Maggie, and she may be an unwilling participant in this.
O God forgive me!
I don't even know if the first paragraph in today's entry is true. A voice told me it. I erased it. It basically claimed Maggie moved from Michigan to Missouri last night.
My selective awareness causes everything that reminds me of Maggie to jump out at me. It is a form of sign-seeking, but if God wants to bring Maggie into my life the natural way its his business, but I'm open to any pure girl at this point.
Six Principles of The Gospel Six Principles of Transgenderism (TG)
Faith Doubt that you are your own sex.
Repentance Repenting of being your own sex
Baptism Gator Gate
Laying on of Hands Surgery
Resurrection Sex change
Eternal Judgment Sex change irreversible
The Manifestation kept me in bondage to being a kid, to my familiar evil spirit, to my fantasy, daydreaming and delusions. To my porn. It was a vicious cycle.
I went to Pastor Pete's Church this morning. There was a potluck lunch.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 25, 2022 2:02:20 GMT -6
07/25-- YOM SHANI
2:56 AM
Now I know why the voices in my head telling me to go manifest a random girl at Casey's were so eager for me to hurry up and finish writing my delusions out of my Diaries. And my voice of self guidance telling me to look for someone in Pastor Pete's circle was flawed. A lot of my delusions, as Shane tried telling me, aren't really delusions, they're God telling me about activities me and Maggie did in past lives, sometimes told in an analogy, sometimes literally. Not, as some would believe, in Past lives on this earth but on other earths like this one, in premortality, back when there was a Ludington, Missouri.
Things like objects that were a terror to you or were very consequential to your life can be a harmless toy or toybox in the next life.
4:12 AM
Last night and early this morning, I used first Twine 2, then Twine to start making two video game adventures so far, and now I am watching the movie Sing.
To get over fear of doing something you want to do, just start doing it.
Knowing the truth sets me free. Also, not writing in my journal about my sins and repentance sets me free.
5:42 AM
Sing was excellent.
Last night I watched S3X15 of the Clone Wars, part 1 of the Mortis Arc.
Tonight I watched S1X3 of the Mandalorian: The Sin.
At 12:19 AM I cast the evil familiar spirit out of my body out of my being out of my apartment and out of my life. It had manifested in my room.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 26, 2022 3:39:30 GMT -6
07/26-- YOM SHLISHI
Conversation I had on PalTalk:
Lena: Hello brent
Rens: Lena, feel as if you are on the mend?
Brent: Lena how are you?
Lena: I'm ok
Lena: how are you?
Lena: yes a little rens. just a suffy nose and head..
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Brent: I'm good. I withstood temptation twice today and cast a demon out of my apartment so I am great
Rens: A clean conscience, Brent?
Brent: What a great thing
Rens: It is, yes
Rens: (Reads Ephesians 5) How are you nich?
Rens: gbu nich
Brent: Joseph Prince said how Satan loves to attack especially women
Rens: Even the New Testament says a woman needs power on her head because of those fallen angels.
Rens: Women tend to be captivated by sweet nothings.
Why do I believe that the entire Sealed Book of Mormon is the Word of God?
1. The unlikelihood of the Unity Center Sisters getting hold of the flash drive with the SBOM manuscript on it.
2. The unlikelihood of Mauricio not having been supposed to use the Urim and Thummin to translate the SBOM into Portuguese.
3. The words of the 2020 AD Revelation through Joseph F. Smith: "For if you have no desire to follow my words, I will remove the light and opportunity I have given, and you will fall back into the emptiness of your past. Verily thus saith the Good Shepherd, Your Lord, Your God. Amen."
4. I cannot find any doctrinal errors in the book.
5. In another revelation the SBOM was called 'the Word of God to this generation'.
6. We were warned by God not to fall under the same temptation that Mauricio fell unto.
7. Acts of the Three Nephites 14:58-59
Behold, will you reject these words preserved by My own hand for a wise future purpose? Will you reject the words of the prophets and all the words spoken by Me, Jesus Christ, in this record? Will you deny the power of God and the gift of the Holy Spirit given to thee by the laying on of hands of those who have authority to do so? Behold, in so doing, you will erase forever the flame of the Holy Spirit who dwells in your heart...
8. Prophets are not infallible.
The Holy Spirit said:
Son, as long as you live, Satan will use what you hear and see (and how you feel - Perry) against you, stand on my Word-Perry Stone.
Kenneth Copeland is a Faith Specialist. Joseph Prince is a Grace Specialist. I am a Generalist. If it's about Truth and the Gospel, I'm preaching it.
2:09 PM
After rising from sleep around Midnight + 19 minutes, I stayed up the rest of the night on my laptop, trying to take a nap with my Sealed Book of Mormon and Why I Believe in the Bible by Phyllis Robinson and restless, I got up to go buy notebooks at the Dollar Store and hang out at the library, but suddenly remembered that I was supposed to have an appointment with Haley this morning, so I called her. Surprisingly she picked up and she told me she had gotten sidetracked today and we rescheduled for tomorrow moring at 8:30 a.m and later in the day she texted me then called me and we talked again and we moved it up to tomorrow morning at 9:30 a.m. I need to report to Independence or Kansas City courthouse for Jury Duty in August and I am going to vote in the Primaries in the first days of August. Also in August I need to call Social Security and tell them I didn't make any wages in June to set the records straight. I am still waiting for a call from Christina my GM to call me to McDonald's soon to meet with her and her Boss Rob to discuss me being more stable on my meds as of late so as to be able to in Rob's eyes get hours to work at McDonald's.
At the library Colt called me. I challenged him to check out Teen Challenge which is near him on Kansas Side, described the program to him and told him it had an 80% rate of success, challenged him to get a free Bible from someone, and check out International House of Prayer-KC. I also admonished him to acknowledge that Christ gives him the power to say no to his addiction, but to claim every victory because God don't get the victory for him. I also told him how my life was going, that I was fixing on improving my study and personal habits and that I'm coming out of my addictions and delusions, and before we hung up told him Jesus loves him.
My phone has 20% charge.
I had a productive day at the library.
I need to study videos on improving study habits and practice what I learn.
8:13 PM Today I earned the name 'V'th'. I saw a '5' burned onto my mind's eye to let me know of this.
I need to start making my schedules and stick to them, and learn how to speed read and learn good notetaking skills.
I can also learn Gregg shorthand on YouTube.
I want to buy a Telescope.
ChromeBook fiirst- first goal. Digital Camcorder- second goal. I need a 'I can' mindset. Telescope-Third goal. A good one, too, not a second hand one. 4'th goal: a big, big monitored Dell Desktop to sit atop my big desk, next to my Router.
Debbie Norman will be able to get me lots of 5 and 3 subject notebooks for my subsequent (and some of my past??) journals.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 27, 2022 9:05:30 GMT -6
07/27-- WEDNESDAY
My Case Manager was here this morning. Together we filled out part of my Jury Duty Qualification Questionnaire but she has to complete it at her office to upload a Disability Document.
We watched several minutes of The Force Awakens, then she left.
Then I slept in my bed 'til 3:48 PM.
I began to watch YouTube videos about improving study habits after writing a fiction story about starting to watch them a few days from now, thinking to myself, No time like the present.
Pastor Pete invited me to watch One Night With The King at his church at 6:30 PM tonight so I will, and I will see if sometime I can get a Monopoly Group started there.
9:15 PM The movie was better than I remembered.
Text I received from Jury Board:
no subject / *******83: Your jury disqualification request has been granted. You are not required to repor
Praise God from Glory!
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Post by luke888 on Jul 28, 2022 1:08:51 GMT -6
THURSDAY, JULY 28, 2022 CE-
1:27 AM Making a study video. The common thread between all my studies so far is the persecution of the Jewish people and Hebrew studies.
Still waiting for my landlord and Jay to come put a replacement rail in the drop ceiling in my bathroom and replace my oversized kitchen corner defunct light so that I can open my cabinet door wash my dishes and put my clean dishes away.
As I watched Episode I of Aurelnauts' parody of Kenobi, Larry, Haley came at 8:17 to pick me up to take me to see Dr. Brooks my Med Dr.
"Chasing dreams, never wasting doubts"-from the song time limits, sammy rash.
"Where you want to be five years from now?" I don't even know five minutes. I'm chasing dreams and never wasting doubts but I don't want to place time limits.
I weigh 174.2. My BMI (Body Mass Index) is 25, which is good for my height.
AIMS is 0 and remember to brush and floss my teeth more.
Blood Pressure (BP) is 131/74 which is a little elevated but there could be interfering factors, so it's likely fine.
Pulse 84.
Those are good.
That is how you open your mind. Just pick a random thing and see where it takes you.
9:17 AM The appointment went well. I was very honest. When I got out of the Dr's office, someone on TV said 'Tell the truth' which I took as a sign from God that He was pleased with my honesty today.
On the way home, Haley and I discussed Nephilim in space, on Saturn, Jupiter and the moon, Intelligent life outside earth, Galaxies, Existences, eternities, Giants, the Flood, Gilgames, Noah, the Mona Lisa on the Moon, ship and moonbase, manmade lakes and vegetation on the moon, and satellites, and space being the Second Heaven or the demonic realm, and the Rings of Saturn being trophies Satan kept from destroyed worlds, and Alexander the Great's armies encountering Giants, and multiverses.
I also recommended the movie One Night With the King to her.
I got a letter from Joseph Prince Ministries about getting 120% restored to me that the enemy stole, and God's Grace being sufficient for me, and I believe it.
Dr. Brooks wrote my Scrips and we made an appointment for Thursday, September 20, 8 weeks out.
I believe that I am going to start getting serious about learning computer coding.
I made a more than four hour long study stream, Gordon took me to the library to return my Chromebook and to McDonald's, where he got me a McChicken and a small fry, and earlier at Casey's I had redeemed Rewards Points for Casey's virtual cash and got a Medium Dr. Pepper for a dollar of it.
I ate my McDonald's food at home, played RAID: Shadow Legends, took my pills, brushed my teeth, flossed, ended my stream, took my trash out before I ended my stream, and watched and am watching two Minecraft videos, and an old Old Repubic stream I made, while continuing to play RAID.
I got a letter from Jimmy Swaggart Ministries. Jerry Lee Lewis is now saved.
I talked to Brother Bob Moore over the phone.
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Post by luke888 on Jul 29, 2022 1:49:54 GMT -6
07-29-- FRIDAY
After waking from a vivid dream in which I drew hilarious comics and made hilarious movies based off of them , I got up around 2:30 AM and fed Galadriel outside and started streaming.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jul 30, 2022 13:08:10 GMT -6
07/30-- SABBATH
Today I learned about cosmic rays and their negative effect on computers, Gödel numbers, non Euclidian Geometry, the Theory of the Infinite (I had already learned about this earlier) while watching Star Wars videos.
Exponential notation has the ability to produce a number with 73 million digits.
Any system that can do fundamental arithmetic will have statements in it which, though true, may not be provable.
Right now I am watching a Restorationist (RLDS)-themed podcast on the Book of Abraham.
I called Beverly to find out if we can have a boardgame day today.
Christina my GM has been sick lately, so has not been able to schedule a meeting with her, Rob and I to discuss me getting hours.
Dear Maggie, I return to talking directly to you. I am learning a lot of scientific and mathematical things today, some of which definitely prove the existence of the Judeo-Christian God.
Today I watched a Michael Hur Video that caused me deep repentance called "NeoSodomiteism: The origins of the Underground or Sub-cultures" which wasn't what the video was called, but was its subject. This is also the first entry of Diary 50.
Soon I will begin typing in earnest, Dear one, Diary V of Brent Lee Sohlden Koivopolo, which is the basis of everything I believe and hope in, laying out why I do, and what I have testimonies and witnesses for.
68% of this Universe is made of Dark Energy
27% of this universe is made of Dark Matter
5% of this Universe is Ordinary Matter.
10-35m Space Time Planck Scale
10-20m Particles LHC
10-5m Life Cell
1010m Planets Moon
1025m Universe Hubble Space
They say that smaller than planck units and dodechahedrons, there is nothing smaller, that there is a limit to smallness, and a limit to bigness.
But I refute this idea with two Scriptures from Latter Day Scripture:
1 "Limit to Smallness" refuted.
RLDS Doctrine and Covenants 85:9A (LDS DC 88:36, 37):
All kingdoms have a law given: and there are many kingdoms; for there is no space in which there is no kingdom; and there is no kingdom in which there is no space, either a greater or lesser kingdom.
2 "Limit to Bigness" refuted.
Pearl of Great Price,
Abraham 3:16
If two things exist, and there be one above the other, there shall be greater things above them; therefore Kolob is the greatest of all the Kokaubeam that thou hast seen, because it is nearest unto me.
Pearl of Great Price ,
Moses 1:4 (RLDS Doctrine and Covenants 22:3B)
For my works are without end, and also my words, for they never cease.
Taken together, these verses spell out endless eternities, kingdoms, dimensions, realms, existences, Universes and beyond, going endlessly outward and inward, and Joseph Smith taught a plurality of Gods, all equally intelligent and powerful and in agreement, never in conflict, none capricious or capable of sin or carnality.
Today I learned that one of the cashiers at a local store is RLDS and I invited him to be an Admin on my Mara/Luke4ever website.
Dear Diary, I just emptied out my hotmail.com inbox, keeping only a choice few emails (out of over 8,000!). I feel a big burden has been lifted from my life. It is now 9:52 PM. I had a medium soda today, but earlier today, having not had one ounce of soda to speak of, I got hoppin' mad, swore and shouted angrily. Fortunately, my bathroom door was shut during most of that outburst, (the neighbors hear me through the bathroom walls, strangely, where there should be the most privacy!) proving beyond the shadow of a doubt that neither soda, caffeine, sugar, or insomnia is the cause of my anger or irritibility, for not only did I not have any caffeine or sugar or soda except maybe two peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, but thats hardly the sugar content of soda, but I had gotten plenty of sleep the night before.
Dear Maggie, I have three notebooks, two black college ruled five subject notebooks and one wide ruled blue three subject notebook, in which to start my Diary Project. It's going to take a very, very long time to do.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 16:00:20 GMT -6
08/02--
YOM SHLISHI
I've been dreaming about nothing but sleeping, dreaming and making movies and being influential in play productions for the last three days, during which I've been sick, edited the Episode II and Episode VI Humorous Versions, listened to the Gospel of Luke and the Book of Enoch and part of the Book of Jasher, read some of the Bible: Fact or Fiction by Douglas S. Winnail of the Living Church of God, eaten homemade chicken and rice soup and the other day watched one of the Clone Wars Season 3 Episodes I hadn't seen yet, Nightsisters.
I read a little more of Why I Believe The Bible Is The Word of God by Phyllis Robinson.
A man on discord doesn't think it's worth the time and effort to finish the Star Wars Humorous Versions because they are dated from 1999 to the early 2000's, but that is his opinion and the opinion of his group. I will still put time and effort into it. Lord, help the main ones to be finished. Send people my way to help finish them. Amen.
"The reason why they didn't get finished so far is people wanted to do them in order, not work on multiple ones at once. That's what Darth Vacuous believes.
But then I finished The Attack of The Clones Humorous Version, proving that not only could it be done but that doing so was satisfying and so worth it." I said to him.
While watching Newsmax TV on Pluto on my phone, after updating Plarium Play, I will now play RAID: Shadow Legends. Before I turned Eric Bolling on Newsmax, I took my pills.
I had planned to go vote in the Midterm Primaries today, but can't go out voting due to my sickness.
I am no longer watching superhero movies or dealing much with superhero things.
Yesterday I took a full shower.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 16:04:32 GMT -6
08/03--
WODEN'S DAY
I'm speaking to lack of food and telling it that God is bigger.
I'm speaking to money and telling it God is bigger.
I'm speaking to sickness and telling it God is bigger.
All these things are consequences of my past sins.
I praise God in my circumstances, for Paul while in prison wrote to us to rejoice, and again I say rejoice.
I have had a reprogrammed Limbrick system, see life almost as if I were a child, with innocent eyes, for several days now and have been clean since July 30.
I am watching CBN News. I like OAN, NewsMax, theBlaze, theFirst and America's Voice, and Andrew Wommack.
I learned about the War of 1812 today. I asked the Holy Spirit to comfort me today and He did. I don't like Fox News or Tucker Carlson as much because they shun Trump.
You can't add synergy or syncretism to Christ. He is exclusive. He came not to bring peace but a sword. Where a good spirit and a bad spirit are there will always be conflict. Where there is a good kingdom and a bad kingdom they will always be in opposition. That is why I cannot continue reading The Third Alternative by Stepen R. Covey. Sometimes there is no compromise.
The Supreme Court ruled today that a Christian flag could fly over Boston, that the denial of the flag was unConstitutional.
I just had a potato. Later I'll have some soup, and possibly some juice and canned fruit.
Today I watched The Bad Batch Season 1 Episode Battle Scars with Star Wars Santa's Group.
Watched an episode of Garfield and Friends, the old cartoon TV series I used to enjoy as a child.
Now I'm watching someone play Jedi: Fallen Order again, on Pluto Gamer.
3:19 PM I love watching (and playing) Minecraft. I used to watch many Minecraft videos a few or several years ago. I watched a Minecraft video earlier today that Jedi Mike had posted and am now watching Minecraft TV.
Pastor Pete delivered to me: Juiceboxes.
Crackers and peanutbutter. Chicken and rice soup.
For which I am very grateful.
Rick gave me 2.00 for which I am very grateful, with which I bought an X-Tra Large Dr. Pepper, for which I am thankful.
I started watching Rise of Kingdoms YouTube videos in addition to Minecraft.
We are raising a generation of engineers, socialists and warmongers, void of morals, rebellious, atheists and agnostics, and who believe that all sciences are lawful, and that all American Leftist causes are just. This is a very scary and even frightening thought.
Today I watched most of the movie School of Rock and will probably finish it tonight and after watching most of that movie, read II Chronicles 25. Before watching more of the movie, I will likely read more of The Bible: Fact or Fiction.
I started my Diary Project today by editing Diary I.
Now I will text Pastor Pete, possibly call him if he doesn't respond to the text, and take my pills and finish my soda.
I read Psalms 99.
10:29 PM I finished my soda. I still have half my soup for tomorrow. After reading pp. 8-10 of The Bible: Fact or Fiction, I finished School of Rock, or am about to be finished with it, then I will probably be doing something else good.
10:54 PM I brushed and flossed my teeth.
Around 11:20 PM I prayed for God to arrange for either Rick or Pastor Pete to take me out to Hardees for a burger sometime. Then around 11:22 PM I cried out to God "I'm hungry! I'm hungry! I'm hungry!" and wept. Around 11:24 PM I got up and ate about half a box of TasteeO's. Now I feel a little better. I have a bloc of Bison meat but can't refreeze cooked meat so don't know how I can make that last four days. I could get meat poisoning if I try consuming the entire bloc in one meal. And one sausage patty. Plus one can of tuna, and a bunch of canned vegetables and things I don't know how to or don't want to cook or cook with. Tomorrow I go to the CSL, but they and Pastor Pete are trying to put pressure on me to get Food Stamps. So far, Joy and Ken are not. Elder Ken confirmed to me that if you stay hydrated you can go without food for 40 days. Joy promised me that I'd make it through this trial. I told them I'm not worried.
I have never seen the righteous forsaken
Or his seed begging for bread
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 16:19:55 GMT -6
08/04--
THOR'S DAY
I started today with a short shower and the assertion that God could not forgive me for my sins, but God told me I could repent, and I repented and wept bitterly.
Then I put on new clothes, and started a new Diary-Diary 51. Then I cleared my browsing history and data.
In the days of my abstinence, a homosex u al Watcher came to me whom I flat out rejected. I sent Gabriel and Uriel to chase it and deal with it.
When I could keep my continence no longer tonight, and I was moping, laying atop my Scriptures, Lillith came tempting me, saying, and appearing in the form of Ahsoka Tano, "I am Ahsoka Tano, etc, you brought me to life, God created me out of one of your ribs, I am bone of your bone and flesh of your flesh, your wife..." and she bid me read her the Scriptures in my mind "so she could take upon her her full appearance"
but then I discerned before too long and before she fully appeared, that it was Lillith, and she acknowledged it. I cast her out in the name of Jesus Christ, pleading the blood of Jesus Christ over her.
3:20 AM Then I lay back in bed, but then felt my privy member caught in a fisher's snare as a fisher tried cutting my privy off with his fishing privy and I grabbed my walking stick by my bed and asked God to make it a sharp tool, and I took my staff in both hands and cut, twisted, yanked and pulled and cut the fisher's privy member off, then begged God to protect mine, by asking him to set Uriel and Gabriel a Watch about both my physical and spiritual privy, employing as many additional angels as they see fit, and asked God to put a hedge about it.
I heard God shout out as I lay back down that Victory is His and victory belongs to the Lord but there is one final battle-- myself-I must give up porn. He told me to download Qustudio. I told Him I was willing, and downloaded the Apps on my phone. I need to continue downloading with the help of Pastor Pete tomorrow or soon.
5:42 AM The night in my bed ended with multiple fisher attacks on various parts of my body, but I overcame through the blood of Christ.
I breakfased on some crackers and pb, a grapejuice box and more than half a can of green beans.
I no longer work for McDonald's, or anyone. I am no longer a McDonald's employee. They terminated my employment in May. I need a new job. Something as fun as McDonald's and fulfilling as McDonald's.
Thankfully, I am getting enough money through Social Security to stay in my apartment.
Pastor Pete took me to the CSL today.
3:48 PM I called Social Security to report the loss of my job.
Numbers 22 and 23 of my Spotify Playlist
22. Get Rythm Artist: Johnny Cash Album: Johnny Cash at Sun
23. His Eye Is On The Sparrow Artist: Selah Album: Be Still My Soul
24. It is Well With My Soul Artist: Anthem Lights Album: Hymns
I had the rest of my soup for supper.
I am very thankful for all of my CSL food and supplies.
I am listening to my Spotify Playlist. I am on Song 9.
7:31 PM My playlist of 24 songs is now over. Don't Worry, Be Happy played after it.
9:17 PM And yet the world goes by. Brent, jobless, condemned by Scripture (II Thessalonians 3:10-12). Train goes by.
I can hardly wait for the Andor series to come out.
I sent Pastor Pete the following text: The Scriptures say in II Thessalonians that if a man does not work he shall not eat. I want to work for you.
Pastor Pete texted back: Ok, we can talk tomorrow
I said back to him in text: Ok
Last Edit: Sep 25, 2022 at 9:05pm by BrentKoivopolo888
Love is sacrifice.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 16:27:13 GMT -6
08/05--
FREY'S DAY
7:46 PM Train goes by. Brent needs a job. Life goes on.
Last Edit: Aug 5, 2022 at 7:48pm by BrentKoivopolo888
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 16:28:48 GMT -6
08/06--
SABBATH
I listened to International House of Prayer-Kansas City all night long.
God gave me a dream revealing unto me what happened to me those missing two years from 1988-1989 that I previously had no memory of. I was at 4030 Keyes Street playing with and being enticed with evil and sex u al spiritual forces, opening evil doors.
After I closed that door, I dealt with my past and did spiritual warfare based upon my past.
Yesterday I went to Pastor Pete's where I and Pastor Pete did my laundry, and I took Vitamin C and Zinc and took off my shirt and sat in a lawnchair in the backyard in the Sun for ten Minutes. Instead of having a third bowl of soup in three days however, I elected to have Chinese Chicken instead.
While waiting for my laundry to get done, I watched The Season 3 Clone Wars Episodes I hadn't seen yet Arc Troopers and Supply Lines and then watched The Empire Strikes Back.
Last night I went to Rick's house after putting my clean clothes away at night, and we watched TV and I had chocolate milk. We watched North Woods Law and Fox News. Not a single mention of Donald Trump on Fox News.
Today I had 11 Mg of Zinc, 90 Mg of Vitamin C, 25 Mg of Vitamin D3 (1,000 IU) and other Vitamins.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 17:34:02 GMT -6
08/07--
LORD'S DAY
Yesterday I defiled the Sabbath over four times by messing up with porn.
Today is a new day.
I read the first 74 pages of the book Heaven Eyes by David Almond.
Last night, Rick took me out to eat at Hardee's, then took me to Walmart and got me 50.00 worth of nutritious groceries. He said he felt the Lord led him to do this.
Thank You Father for my food. In Christ's Name, I pray, Amen.
At night I listened to Star Wars videos, mainly about different Star Wars Universe species of races of men.
Around 4:12 AM, I was laying in bed when I saw the outline drawing in detail in my mind of a purple mountaintop.
The war in Ukraine right now is barely being covered by Fox News; CNN is covering it way more.
4:27 AM Rn I'm watching OAN to see if there's any Ukraine coverage.
The woman who testified under oath that Trump lunged at the wheel based 95% of her testimony on hearsay, meaning she heard it from others, and someone said it did not happen. But there is no one to cross examine her.
I've been checking around the news stations. Now they seem to be focusing on military US intervention to prevent Chinese invasion of Taiwan. They say Xi Jin Ping is watching the situation in Russia and Ukraine to see what he can get away with in Taiwan. So one throwaway reference to the Ukraine situation on Pluto Headline News.
I'm watching Star Trek: The Next Generation. It's about a boy who was raised by the Telarian Captain Endar of the Warship Q'Maire, born Jeremiah Rossa and adopted by the Telarians.
At Church, I read the first 46 pages of America's Last Call by David Wilkerson, then after the congregation had taken Communion, went in and paid attention to the sermon by John Martinko about repentance, then came home and took a nap until about 1 PM.
2:14 PM I read pp. 75-124 of Heaven Eyes by David Almond.
I napped from about 2:15 PM-4:15 PM.
I ate part of a bland bowl of homemade mac and cheese at 5 PM and took my pills at 6 PM, Skyping Pastor Pete, though he was not watching me when I took them.
I went to Church at Oak Grove Restoration Branch this evening (I went to Bates City Restoration Branch in the morning) then came home, bought a Dr. Pepper with 1.88 Rick gave me, wherein the young man who is of my faith and I were able to swap testimonies, I then came home and read the first 20 pages of a new translation of the Epic Danish Poem Beowolf, and drank my pop.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 23:18:09 GMT -6
08/08--
YOM SHANI
I have three days to repent, lest God curse me again. Yesterday was Day 1.
America's Last Call, David Wilkerson, pp. 46-51.
Beowulf, A New Translation, Maria Dahvana Headley, pp. 20-28.
6:39 PM The Oracle, Jonathan Cahn, pp. 3-12
6:58 PM The Oracle, Jonathan Cahn, pp. 12-17
I spent most of the day in bed daydreaming about Maggie.
Why I Believe the Bible Is The Word Of God, Phyllis Robinson, pp. 53-60.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 23:20:05 GMT -6
08/09--
YOM SHLISHI
Although 'love' flashed across my mind's eye today, I believe this is a greater capacity for me to love with my heart God and man.
I wrote a fictional Diary today stretching from Wednesday August 10-Wednesday, August 24.
I spent most of the day in bed today, and on my couch. I am finishing a three-day fast of repentance.
I took my pills earlier today.
I'm about to start typing Ronald Reagan and Father James Sheeran's Diaries again. Also, I may work on Apostle Edmund C Briggs' Diary and Richards' A Marvelous Work And A Wonder.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 23:23:28 GMT -6
08/10--
WODEN'S DAY
At 2:28 AM the words "BEGONE" flashed through my mind.
God told me before the words flashed:
"I have always had the false conviction that I have blasphemed the Holy Ghost since childhood. It runs counter to much of the history I have between me and God. BEGONE false conviction in the name of My Son Jesus Christ!"
"When we can perceive our available options--the range of choices we could make, plus the outcomes associated with them--our capacity for good choices grows"- Stephen Kent, "How the Force Can Fix The World.
I had a dream, actually more than one, and I felt I was directed to talk to one of my cousins and take all of my games down to Joy's to see him.
But it turned out to be just that--a dream, although I walked all the way down to Joy's with my games, I ended up going to the library after drinking a cup of water at Joy's. Joy wants my case manager to make an appointment for me to go down to Social Security.
Also I told Joy I would like to start going to the Restructured Church. She asked if I was over my addction. I said "We'll see if time will tell." But at the library I looked at some things I'm not proud of, so I'm not 100% repentive of my sins yet. I begged God's forgiveness right there in public. He forgave me.
I got a couple Star Wars books off of the shelf.
You must control your emotions-that brings peace.
You must gain knowedge and wisdom-that takes away ignorance.
You must control your passions- that brings serenity.
You must live in harmony-that takes away chaos.
You must not fear death-everything is the Force.
Through Christ's power I gain Victory.
Through Victory my chains are broken.
Christ shall make me free.
Mastery over base desires, these invisible forces: eating, drinking, sex, dominance over others in accordance with passing whims, brings liberation and wisdom from these hardwired vices. -Plato
Find your Obi-Wan:
It can be really hard sometimes to see the choices we have available to us. Our imagination and sense of possibility is somewhat limited to experience. Talk to friends, family and mentors about the struggles you face and decisions you need to make. We all need an Obi-Wan Kenobi. You might reaiize by talking to this person that you have more options than you'd thought, and more will to exercise.-Stephen Kent.
Free will, they might say, is enhanced by limiting your range of choices in life. Refusing to ever touch a cigarrette means that you'll never have to feel that pain of nicotine addiction dragging you outside to smoke during your child's champion basketball game.
This story can have a happy ending, even if I made some poor choices along the way.
This morning Haley came over and she asked me about my meds and moods then she had to go and see the rest of her clients so couldn't watch any of The Force Awakens. Then I took a long nap. I'm going to Pastor Pete's church today. Pastor Pete is picking me up from the library. I read a Star Wars comic book today.
At Pastor Pete's church the song it is well with my soul gave me comfort. We gave praise reports.
Then Rick took me to the post office, Wal-Mart for him to get him postage
stamps and now we are at Wendy's where we each had a Chocolate Frosty, a large fry and an ice water.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 23:31:05 GMT -6
08/11--
THURSDAY
I had cream of chicken soup and noodles today for lunch. Last night, Rick came over and played some of a game of Monopoly with me. I fed us on homemade macaroni and cheese. He put sea salt and black pepper in his. I put sea salt black pepper and oregano in mine. We both had orange juice to drink. I had bananas and tortilla chips. He had fig bars. We fed the cat together and gave her water.
This morning I ate tasteeos. I slept in bed most of the day. Still have a bit of a cold. I was awake and asleep at the same time as I heard myself snoring. Then I woke up and turned my Chromebook on.
Last night I forgot to take my pills.
Tonight I got two dollars from Rick and bought Dr. Pepper. Today was not a very productive day.
I took my pills tonight.
Day One of It's Personal Daily Journal:
3. Time with God's Teachers.
It's Personal Daily Journal 78:21 minutes.
*Meditation is not done in the head but in the heart.
*Information is the fuel that a personal relation will burn.
*There are some appetites you need to encourage, feed, some appetites you need to suppress and some appetites you need to STARVE!
*Two reasons to discipline your kids: 1. Direct Disobedience 2. Bad attitudes.
2. Daily Proverb: 10:13-10:23 PM 10 Minutes
Proverbs 11
He that pursueth evil pursueth it to his own death.
I need to stop pursuing evil.
The desire of the righteous is only good.
I have had evil desires.
He that seeketh mischeif, it shall come unto him.
I need to repent!
He that trusteth in his riches shall fall.
Father, forgive me for thinking Social Security will save me! I trust in Thee Holy Spirit! Amen.
He that troubleth his own house shall inherit the wind.
O Father, forgive me for bringing porn into this house! Amen.
He that winneth souls is wise.
Thank You, Father for the souls you have given me.
1.Time in the Word.
Alma 9:44-51 RLDS
It was appointed unto man that they must die.
Who must die?
All mankind.
And after death they must come to judgment.
Who must come to judgment?
All mankind.
We have a choice, whether to do evil or to do good, to act according to our wills and pleasures, but we must die and come to judgment.
4. Personal Prayer Time.
1. Praise.
1. My Prayer altar.
2. My orange True Vine painting with the cross.
3.The Cross.
4. Knowing Jerry.
5. Being acquainted with Joe Bailey's kids.
6. Other prayers.
2. Provision/Needs/Requests
1. Maggie.
2. Children.
3.An amplifier for my ham radio.
4. A job.
3. Forgveness.
1. For me
1.That sex u al escapade with my pillow.
2. For others:
1. Steve.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 23:40:19 GMT -6
08/12--
FRIDAY
Loki is the god of mischeif who fell from heaven aka Lucifer.
In the Loki program, Loki fell in love with a female version of himself. Lucifer also, because he is a narcissist, according to legend, fell in love with a female version of himself.
Truth is a hard and narow niche, yet is expansive, embraces everything and is eternal and infinite and endless going on, inward and outward forever.-On the nature of truth.
Truth is knowledge of things as they are, as they were and as they are to come-Truth defined.
My next appointment with Haley is Tuesday, August 16 @ 9AM.
I almost fell by the stroke of death for last night's trangressions, and I begged God to spare my life. As I repented in dust, I begged God to always keep me mindful of what almost happened. That will be the way out. God promised that with the temptation would be the way of escape and I'll hold him to that.
Halfway through my It's Personal Daily Journal last night, during my Personal Prayer time, the Lord I believe told me to call Rick. He did not answer his phone after three, four calls so I walked over to his house. The cat, Galadriel, followed me over to Rick's house. Rick pulled into his driveway with Jo's sister and he said he was going over to her house to watch COPS because he couldn't get it at his house. He made the mistake of petting the cat and the cat wanted to stay at Rick's but I carried the cat all the way back to the corner and I followed her home and fed her and made sure she had water. Then I took a shower and went to bed but satan told me to have a sex u al fantasy about Halloween Night and I obeyed him and then watched porn on my laptop, continuing a movie I had started the other day after watching part of a series with nudity in it. After I lay back down to sleep, I almost fell by the stroke of death but I begged God for my life and asked him to remind me of what almost happened next time I am tempted, and that would be the way of escape for me. He did promise it. That with the temptation he would make the way of escape. I'll hold him to it.
I read the Gideon's Life Book 2009 edition of the Book of John pp. 26-31, ate cookies and swept the crumbs and dust off the floor.
The Scriptures are in my heart, engraven on the tables of my heart with an iron pen! I should know better than to look at porn. Father, ever keep me mindful of what almost happened tonight. Amen.
To prove how serious God is about sin, God almost let me fall by the stroke of death again around 5:25 AM. I am begging him not to let me die.
8:50 AM I made it through the night. Satan was mocking me pretending to be God telling me that all people when they reached the end of their life realized satan was the God and that he was going to watch me die and laugh, watching me die a slow agonizing death, telling me it was because I didn't give up Maggie and telling me 'I will mock you when your calamity cometh because you have hated reproof' and 'he who being often reproved hardeneth his neck is destroyed suddenly and that without remedy' and 'I just need to call it quits with Maggie' and other things, torturing me in my legs and feet.
But I made it through the night.
Earlier today I wished Maggie would come back into my life and I heard someone at the door but it was just Steve. He said, is that your cat? You brought him here. You gotta take him in. I told him that I couldn't afford to take the cat in yet. 'You brought him here. I saw you'. Steve said. 'She was at Rick's.' I said. 'I couldn't leave her at Rick's.'
10:07 AM I'm breakfasting on Tater Tots I made in the oven.
3:22 PM I had pizza and orange juice for lunch.
I slept most of the day.
5:10 PM One of my eyeglasses came out of my frames. Pastor Pete wants me to call him in one hour because he might be coming into town.
6:49 PM Pastor Pete was able to fix my glasses, at least for now. He took me to his son's house where he fed his son's dogs. We discussed a plurality of Gods and gods and Lucifer being the brother of Jehovah. We prayed that I would lose my sex drive until I get married to a good Christian wife.
6:53 PM Star Wars The Phantom Menace has been on my computer since about 5:20 PM.
7:49 PM TPM is over.
Last Edit: Aug 12, 2022 at 7:49pm by BrentKoivopolo888
Love is sacrifice
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 23:47:14 GMT -6
08/13--
SABBATH
4:38 PM CDT I'm streaming on my Brent Koivopolo V YouTube Channel.
5:27 PM I played RAID: Shadow Legends for a while. I still need to fight in the arena five times.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 23:50:27 GMT -6
08-14--
LORD'S DAY
Haley needs to take me to the Office of Disability Determinations September 12, 2022, to be tested to see if they still consider me diabled or not. If not, I would lose my SSI, phone, apartment and food supply.
Even if I had a job, it would not be nearly enough to cover my bills.
Haley also will be taking me job hunting. My 8/18/2005 AD DIARY III Rule: Taco Bell is my first choice in my job hunt.
I'm watching a young man slay the Ender Dragon on MineCraft TV.
6:55 PM He slew the dragon, got and picked up Rainbow XP and got the Dragon Egg onto the torch and picked it up.
7:05 PM He beat a battle tower and yielded some big rewards.
7:20 PM He planted the Ender Dragon Egg as a trophy on the front porch of his home base, making the light shine through it.
7:47 PM I've watched up to Episode 3 of Auralnauts' Larry Kenobi.
9:39 PM Around 10:15 PM Rick should be here to finish our game of Monopoly.
10:04 PM The young man spawned and defeated Mobzilla on Minecraft TV.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 20, 2023 23:54:47 GMT -6
8-15--
YOM SHANI
Yesterday at Church, Elder Danny preached on the words of Joseph Smith III on how to avoid contention.
Yesterday Rick finished his game of Monopoly with me. He won.
Today Elder Dennis took me to the library. Rick and Jo's sister are here. I took back some books and got out three Choose Your Own Adventure books.
10:15 PM Tonight after the library, Rick, Jo's sister and I went to Hardees where we had cheeseburgers and fries and drinks. Then Rick dropped me off at home.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 21, 2023 0:01:02 GMT -6
08-16--
YOM SHLISHI
I wish I was free from porn.
I wish Maggie was here.
I wish I could go to the Restructured Church.
I wish a lot of things.
I was already baptized and confirmed. That was something I wished and God granted that wish through the Three Nephites.
Now I just need to get my life in order.
My dishes aren't even done. They've been sitting there for months now.
I pray that the Prophet directs the Church to start studying the Sealed Book of Mormon again. Amen.
Yesterday I listened to a lot of Enya and Petula Clark songs.
5:48 AM I cleaned my house from top to bottom, starting with washing my dishes, then cleaning my bathroom, making my bed and cleaning out my closet and clearing all my surfaces off. It was hard work but so worth it. Here is what I read in Jesus Today:
When you are going through a dark time--a hard time--it's easy to project that darkness into the future. The longer you struggle with adverse circumstances, the darker the way before you appears--and the harder it is to imagine yourself walking along bright paths again. The temptation is to just give up and let misery be your companion. So it is crucial at such times to remember that I am your constant Companion. Moreover, because I am Sovereign God, I am able to turn your darkness into Light.
When you feel on the verge of sinking in despair, turn to Me for help. Cllng to My hand, and walk by faith through the darkness. Do not focus on the circumstances that are weighing you down. Instead, through eyes of faith, look ahead to brighter times, and praise Me for them. While you worship Me in the midst of darkness, I enable you to see the first gleam of dawn on the path before you. Continue walking worshipfully with Me--a walk of faith. As you persevere along this path, the dim light will gradually shine brighter and brighter till the full light of day.
It is raining buckets outside. I hope Gandalf (I think its a he cat) found a safe dry place to sleep. I didn't feed him last night, but will tonight.
I have been sleeping all day most days and all night also for many days. Depressed, yes, I'd say a little and sick also. But I'll recover soon now that there's health in my house again.
I have the I am bound with a covenant lapel on. Later today Pastor Pete owes me a trip to Chick-Fill-A for getting my house clean, but that's not why I did it. Frankly, I was tired of it being a mess so I decided I'd do something about it. I also did it as penance for last night's porn viewing and self pleasuring.
7:32 AM After going to bed for about an hour after brushing my teeth and putting my jammies on, I got up, made my bed, and took pics of all around my apartment and sent them to Pastor Pete's phone.
Then I sent: Do you want to go to Chick-fil-A today?
Then he sent: Who did that for you?
Then I sent: I did it.
Then I sent: God through me
Then he sent: Proud of you
Then I sent: We need to talk about my life and choices
Then I sent: I need counsel and wisdom
Then he sent: I'll call after nursing home
Then I sent: Ok. I have an appointment with Haley this morning
When Haley came over I was on the front porch reading through my 49-55'th Diaries, waiting for her as it rained. We went in. We did paperwork she has to complete at her office for the Office of Disability Determinations. She inquired into my meds, moods and lifestyle. I told her all the truth. I told her I was trying to break free from my addiction by learning a better way to live and that I am stable on my meds and I have not had any mood swings lately and I've been sick and in bed a lot, but probably will recover soon because now there's health in my house now that it's clean. She saw that I had done "my dishes and everything". We made plans to go up to Taco Bell next Tuesday at 9AM and talk to them and see how they hire. She may have to help me get a snagajob account and upload a resume. We watched about five-6 minutes of Star Wars 7: The Force Awakens, then she left.
There is a LOT of GOOD stuff in Diaries 49-55. After Haley left I finished reading those seven Diaries. (Up to 'this morning.' on Diary 55, Entry for 8-16 YOM SCHLISHI)
It gives me a LOT to think about, chew on, ponder. I have been reading passages from the Book of Mormon and Sealed Book of Mormon for the last few days.
4:08 PM After Pastor Pete got out of the nursing home, he came to my house and inspected my apartment, then took me to Chick-Fil-A, where we talked to a 28 year female waitress who lives in Oak Grove named Hannah. Before I went to Chick-Fil-A, I typed a lot of Diary V. Then, after Chick-Fil-A, we picked up my clothes, which are done now, and came to Pastor Pete's house, where Pastor Pete put my load of laundry in, and I watched The Ewok Adventure 2: The Battle For Endor for the first time, and loved it, and watched a lot of Star Wars Rebels., while typing a lot of DIARY 40. I ate watermelon and peanutbutter and crackers and water, and took Zinc and Vitamin C. For dinner we're having pizza with pepperoni and onions, maybe mushrooms. I need to fold my clothes now.
7:17 PM CDT Pastor Pete and I watched The Rise of Skywalker, ate, and I played part of Star Wars 10: The Ordu Menace for him. Now I'm home and I need to put my clean clothes away.
Pastor Pete gave me The Case For Christ by Lee Stroebel and a new Diary.
Last Edit: Aug 16, 2022 at 7:21pm by BrentKoivopolo888
Love is sacrifice.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 21, 2023 0:15:24 GMT -6
08.17--
WODEN'S DAY
I went to Pastor Pete's church today after sleeping all day and having sleeping and dreaming thoughts, then watching part one of Season 1, Episode of How The West Was Won. I helped Pastor Pete load up a bunch of stuff onto the back of his pickup truck from the basement and got a bunch of free stuff in return. At church Pastor Pete ministered on why bad things happen to innocents and concluded that it was because of sin's effect on this world.
Pastor Pete attempted to fix my glasses again; says we will go to the Walmart vision center tomorrow and have them screw the screw tighter. It must have come loose. No one had a mini screwdriver, but they did have magnification.
O Father, thank you for all my free stuff! Amen.
The 25'th song on my Spotify Playlist is To God Be The Glory, Great Things He Hath Done by the Jubilate Singers Album: An Hour of Golden Hymns
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 21, 2023 0:17:50 GMT -6
08.18--
THOR'S DAY
I have been typing DIARY 07-PART II and watching How The West Was Won Season 1 Episode 1 and 2 for many hours now, and I also typed DIARY 06.
Rick bought me an X-tra Large Dr. Pepper. I sat and drank it out on my front porch, petting Gandalf, hoping Maggie would show up for I had set a date for her to arrive many months ago, but she did not.
"Disappointments meet us, tempting us to stray"- from the hymn, Never Be Discouraged.
I really like, How The West Was Won
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Although I messed up last night (the early morning of the seventeenth) I feel this (the eighteenth) is a new beginning for me, and feel clean and justified.
But, O Lord, am I?
I have begged forgiveness, (in public and private) and my computer has been anointed to not work if I mess up on it. And the last porn video I watched is the last one I EVER want to see.
My life is a struggle but somehow I manage to achieve joy, and joy is an emotion that is a fruit of the Spirit and a gift of God. I have joy in my heart every day even on the days I am sick, lonely, heartsick and depressed, and hopelessly addicted!
I believe Pastor Pete lifted the curse from off my website.
Dear Diary, I feel joy right now, and the Holy Spirit is in my heart. The things I did write and type today filled my heart with joy.
The Show I watched today gave me some joy, but the soda I drank made me a little happy.
My sleep and dream thoughts made me miss my biological mom Edith.
Earlier I felt the Holy Spirit as Mom told me, "I am with you."
4:31 AM I took a cold shower, putting my clothes in my dirty clothes bag and lying on my bed drying off and resting for a while, got up, checked my VoiceMail on my phone, and am about to brush and floss my teeth. Earlier tonight I washed my dishes, rinsed out my sponge with cold water, and put it beneath my kitchen sink. Also I called Pete and took my pills with him on the other side of the phone last night.
5:07 AM I put on clean clothes and brushed and flossed. Now I'm ready to go to bed.
5:26 AM I can't sleep for three reasons:
-1 The Dr. Pepper.
-2 I slept all day yesterday
-3 My phone notifications at all hours of the night are keeping me up. I expect each one to be Maggie.
Now I'm listening to a Dream Big Sadie Robertson Hu... podcast Episode 20: Derek Carr on Faith on The High Note by Tauren Wells, on Access More smartphone app.
When I'm pushy, sometimes like a cow, I just don't realize I have horns.
I need to continue making my podcasts that I started several months ago. I forgot what website I was using even. I stopped because the second podcast I tried making never got recorded.
6:12 AM I got on A Level Playing Field on PalTalk. We're having a lively discussion.
I read an excerpt from The Case For Christ by Lee Stroebel to atheist Conroy1299 and prayed that it would get into his heart. It was evidence for the Resurrection of Jesus Christ.
9:03 AM I made a Video on my Brent Koivopolo YouTube account called Uno Card Party and RAID Shadow Legends Gameplay 8/18/2022. It should be up soon.
12:33 PM Colt got his jaw fractured in three places and had surgery where they put two metal plates in his jaw. He feels a lot better.
Pastor Pete came here before 10 AM and fixed my glasses with a mini screwdriver. Praise God for these things!
3:44 PM I took a five-hour nap and ate and started watching, How The West Was Won Season 1, Episode 3, continued.
I had a sex u al fantasy about being married to Maggie while I took my nap, which I begged God for forgiveness for twice.
Ken told me that I need to wait 'til Maggie marries me before I can have sex with her, and that even when I am married to her, it would be wrong to continue to have sex u al fantasies about Maggie because it is an image of Maggie that I am fantasizing about. He says I need to wait for her, she'll come to me after she knows I've been off porn for a while, then she will marry me.
4:53 PM How The West Was Won Season 2, Episode 1 is beginning. The Russians want to hunt buffalo near the sacred Black Hills Mountains, which the Sioux Nation claim to be the home of their Gods, and the U.S. Army wants Zeb Mcahan to guide them, which he refuses to do because the hundred head of buffalo the Russians want to hunt is what will keep the remaining Indians alive this Winter.
10:53 PM I messed up on my Tubi App today, showered, changed my clothes, ate and streamed PalTalk and RAID: Shadow Legends.
When I Skyped Pastor Pete he was in bed. I told him my glasses popped out again. He said he'd look at it tomorrow.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Jan 21, 2023 0:34:42 GMT -6
08/19--
FRIDAY
Pastor Pete, his mother and Jo's sister took me to Walmart to get my glasses fixed today. Pastor Pete told me he hopes I live because I have a lot to learn about life-we all do-and I still have a lot of work to do. He instructed me to take Vitamin C and agreed I should take a Multivitamin (that has Zinc and Vitamin D) and instructed me to eaqt soup and get bedrest.
1:20 PM I ate chicken noodle soup, now I'm going back to bed, streaming.
5:52 PM Last night I washed dishes and fed Gandalf. Back to bed.
8:26 PM I spent most of the day in bed. I had a peanutbutter and jelly sandwich earlier and now am making macaroni and cheese as I stream and do a multibattle on RAID: Shadow Legends. Rn I'm boiling water on my stove.
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