DIARY FIFTY-TWO OF BRENTLY SOHLDEN KOIVOPOLO V

08/10--
WODEN'S DAY

At 2:28 AM the words "BEGONE" flashed through my mind.

God told me before the words flashed:

"I have always had the false conviction that I have blasphemed the Holy Ghost since childhood. It runs counter to much of the history I have between me and God. BEGONE false conviction in the name of My Son Jesus Christ!"

"When we can perceive our available options--the range of choices we could make, plus the outcomes associated with them--our capacity for good choices grows"- Stephen Kent, "How the Force Can Fix The World.

I had a dream, actually more than one, and I felt I was directed to talk to one of my cousins and take all of my games down to Joy's to see him.

But it turned out to be just that--a dream, although I walked all the way down to Joy's with my games, I ended up going to the library after drinking a cup of water at Joy's. Joy wants my case manager to make an appointment for me to go down to Social Security.

Also I told Joy I would like to start going to the Restructured Church. She asked if I was over my addction. I said "We'll see if time will tell." But at the library I looked at some things I'm not proud of, so I'm not 100% repentive of my sins yet. I begged God's forgiveness right there in public. He forgave me. 

I got a couple Star Wars books off of the shelf.

You must control your emotions-that brings peace.
You must gain knowedge and wisdom-that takes away ignorance.
You must control your passions- that brings serenity.
You must live in harmony-that takes away chaos.
You must not fear death-everything is the Force.
Through Christ's power I gain Victory.
Through Victory my chains are broken.
Christ shall make me free.


Mastery over base desires, these invisible forces: eating, drinking, sex, dominance over others in accordance with passing whims, brings liberation and wisdom from these hardwired vices. -Plato

Find your Obi-Wan:

It can be really hard sometimes to see the choices we have available to us.  Our imagination and sense of possibility is somewhat limited to experience. Talk to friends, family and mentors about the struggles you face and decisions you need to make.  We all need an Obi-Wan Kenobi.  You might reaiize by talking to this person that you have more options than you'd thought, and more will to exercise.-Stephen Kent.

Free will, they might say, is enhanced by limiting your range of choices in life. Refusing to ever touch a cigarrette means that you'll never have to feel that pain of nicotine addiction dragging you outside to smoke during your child's champion basketball game.

This story can have a happy ending, even if I made some poor choices along the way.


This morning Haley came over and she asked me about my meds and moods then she had to go and see the rest of her clients so couldn't watch any of The Force Awakens. Then I took a long nap. I'm going to Pastor Pete's church today. Pastor Pete is picking me up from the library. I read a Star Wars comic book today.

At Pastor Pete's church the song it is well with my soul gave me comfort. We gave praise reports.

Then Rick took me to the post office, Wal-Mart for him to get him postage
stamps and now we are at Wendy's where we each had a Chocolate Frosty, a large fry and an ice water.