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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Dec 23, 2021 7:34:36 GMT -6
2021 CE/AD
12/23- THURSDAY
For one to two days, starting on or around December 20, I was in the single-tap and hard to single-tap dimensions.
Then I was in the need-to-double-click dimension later.
Last night, around 2:22 AM I experienced some scary dimensional shifting, once I thought I was back in the Realm of the Dead with my eyes shut before shifting out of it, and other dimensions before that.
Around 4 AM I had some bitter chalkiness on my lips, which I wet my lips with spit and wiped off.
1:13 PM
I got up at around 1:10 PM and checked my mail (I had missed work but had called in) and got an Imprimis Newsletter in the Mail from Hillsdale College. Last night I threw out an entire tray of vegetables because I thought I tasted cigarette smoke on the celery, as if the person who had prepared the tray was a person whose hands always smelled of smoke from her habitual smoking.
I need to take my trash out, probably today.
I watched some of Season One, Episode One of The Bad Batch today.
I keep running into snags on my path to getting the 750. The slot wheel keeps glitching at the 'Attack' and 'Raid' prize (though on 'Raid' glitches you can still push through) and today the Internet connection keeps getting lost.
In Clan Odan-Urr, my light-side Dark Jedi Brotherhood Clan of my character Grik, I have shared the link to the Humorous Versions on the Dark Brotherhood discord fanfic group and signed an Odan-Urr Holiday card. I also attempted a Dark Brotherhood History Exam and got a score of 52 (but you can just keep retaking it til you pass so later I will study more and retake it).
I have a Master by the name of Tim, aka Raziel. According to someone on discord, 'he a good guy'. I'm happy to be his Recruit. (Or am I an Apprentice now, I'm not sure.)
Around 6 AM something tried gouging my left eye out and I rebuked it, whatever it was.
I had dreams about Maggie practically all night last night.
1:37 PM
I had a major Breakthrough just now on Coin King App toward getting 750.00. On Village 3 (I just passed rappidly up through single and double tap land a few seconds ago), which I have to get through to Village 4 in order to advance toward the 750, I got over 5 million coins and bought and upgraded a WHOLE lot of stuff in the Snowy Alps Level. Plus the shields I had gotten had protected me from Attacks. But then I got to the Attack prize myself on the slot wheel and it glitched again. I still have lots of spins left and they always renew themselves or are sent by others of my Facebook Friends who also play Coin King (and they send coins too, and I send them coins and spins too). The coins I send are not deducted from my game account, but people can raid them, as I raid theirs, but again it's not real money.
If I could choose between having a thousand dollars right now to spend on just whatever I wanted or having Maggie back in my life today, I'd choose Maggie.
5:37 PM
I slept 'til 5:37 PM, daydreaming about being married to Maggie and founding my companies, and about the Hugo head.
I know merely daydreaming about a thing, an idle wish, doesn't bring that thing any closer to me. Nor does pining for the absence of that thing as I did last night in my Journal.
But it would gladden my heart to see Maggie again.
Brent"study36"FinalWarning"KoivV — Today at 7:09 PM
Dearest Maggie May,
I doubted again that I LOVE BRENT was you so I wasn't talking to you for a while, but I am fairly confident now that it is you I am talking to.
I've been daydreaming about you, and I hope you can forgive the married life nature of my daydreams. I miss you so much! I can't wait to see you again!
~Love, your Brently
7:38 PM
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Dec 24, 2021 1:58:59 GMT -6
12/24-
FRIDAY
The Boss of the Last Level was a Dragon. I beat him the Second Time I faced him with Galek.
The Boss of this Level was MorganLafaye. She was nearly equal to me in strength in the arena. I beat her the second time I faced her with Galek.
Someone on the Clash of Clans Global Chat said "You all get a sack of coal"
I said "I'll fil your stockings with rubies emeralds and carbuncles
[11:12 PM]
Diamonds are worthless
[11:13 PM]
I was at a party today
[11:13 PM]
I played musical chairs ands simon says
[11:13 PM]
It was fun
Someone else said,
"You don’t know what coal is?," talking to someone else, not to me.
Brent"study36"FinalWarning"KoivV — Today at 11:14 PM
Diamonds are basically coal
@brent"study36"FinalWarning"KoivV
Someone said, at 11:14 PM
Did you win
Brent"study36"FinalWarning"KoivV — Today at 11:15 PM
I almost won. I got to the final two rounds then I was out but I won two dollars for really dancin' out 'round those chairs
[11:15 PM]
I used them to purchase a large Dr. Pepper fountain drink
Someone said at 11:16 PM
Nice
"There is always madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness"- Erich Maria Remarque
11:53 PM
I'm going to take my pills and Apple Cider Vinegar Supplement now.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Dec 25, 2021 8:46:48 GMT -6
12/25-
CHRISTMAS II
Last night I was at a party that I left around 9 PM and then I went home, then to Rick's house, where I watched more of The Bad Batch and also was on Paltalk for a while listening to and playing music. I helped a woman with a Theological question also and set her mind at ease about something. Also I showed Rick old Atari games he remembered playing from yesteryear, played by sai Mike Matei.
The other day I subscribed to gamer LateBlt on my aol.com account.
9:07 AM CDT
I am watching Lateblt's Christmas stream. I want to see if SW Santa is streaming today on Incognito-sign in from Incognito on my telephone.
According to Joyce Meyer, I need to study the Mind and Thinking and read books and watch Videos and DVD's on Thinking and the Mind, which I will be doing, and taking plenty of notes.
9:24 AM
We are having a green Christmas, and have not even had any snow this fall.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Dec 26, 2021 5:01:14 GMT -6
12/26-
SUNDAY-LORD'S DAY
I'm back in the Ordinary World! I know this because Sound is Sound again. I haven't heard the Train make that much noise in a LONG time, if ever! Haven't I been gone ever since I jumped out? Other Brents must have been in my place. I'm so happy!
I work Monday and Saturday from 10-2.
11:01 AM
I'm sitting in Pastor Pete's church.
He said 'Don't believe me just because I said it, but dive in there for yourself'. I am very glad he said that!
He is ministering on 'there's a lot of things in life that we accept as truth but we really don't dig in there.' to a congregation mostly of people who believed what the media and the Government said about blindness and got eye-tested. One of them is wearing glasses. It's saddening.
Today he is looking at the clues to the timing of Jesus' birth. I have already covered this in my Diary. He said the Early Church did not celebrate Jesus' birth. I beg to differ because the song 'Excelsis Deo Gloria' comes from the Early Church.
11:48 AM
Church service is over. I wrote part of my Mexico/Maggie story during the Sermon because I was familiar with the material covered.
12:33 PM CDT
At 12:23 PM I heard a knock and didn't see anyone. I told Maggie that whatever she was doing wasn't working and she would have to come up with a new strategy to get here.
At 12:32 PM I heard another knock and I told her rather upset that she could get here if she asked God how to get here.
10:28 PM
Pastor Pete got me this nice black marble Theme Book for Christmas at my behest. I just spent the last hour or two writing in it what I had typed in "Diary 15" for the last four days' worth of material.
I like plungers. Plungers are cool. Thank You God for my two plungers and my scrub brush, and for a toilet that runs very well so I do not need to use the plungers very often. Praise You Father for this! Bless you! Amen.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Dec 27, 2021 1:14:21 GMT -6
12/27-
MONDAY
I read the beginning of a Romance Novel called 'Sparks Fly' and cut out before it got to the sex scenes.
Basically, in it, a man sought to get a marriage license and found he was already married to a woman-in Missouri, whom he found in the - FROZEN SECTION OF A GROCERY STORE- again on the plane to Florida the word-FROZEN- was repeated. They tried to get the extra marriage annuled but there was a marriage clause and the marriage stuck, so he moved to Florida to move in with her and her kids became his kids.
One-my Background Check says I am a married man.
Two-Maggie lives in Missouri, and one- yes it was her, time I saw her at the Oak Grove WalMart in the FROZEN section, started to approach her, and walked away, and
Three-Maggie doesn't drink or smoke, and neither did the woman in the Romance Novel...
This is amazing! Since I know that Maggie lives in Missouri and not Colorado I know she is single and has no kids! And I don't have to move to Colorado! I was the one that was not single in the book! I was a singer-a Backstreet Boy! And boy do I sing!
It is a balmy 64° right now,at night, two days after Christmas!
1:14 AM I still have not had supper. I'll take care of that now.
On December 12, 2021, I was Promoted from Initiate to Apprentice in Clan Odan-Urr.
3:38 AM CDT
I never ate dinner, but fell in with some youths playing Clash of Clans and we tried doing some things, and they made me a Mod of a discord server.
At 4:03 AM I self-Diagnosed based on the Definitions of Dr. Ramani and determined myself to neither be a narcissist nor a psychopath nor a sociopath.
A narcissist is grandiose, entitled, has an overinflated opinion of his/herself, and is arrogant, which things are true of me to some degree some of the time, but feel shame when they do bad things, and guilt, but more shame than guilt, but unlike me they lack any empathy, and I am totally empathetic, even to the point where I literally feel the pain of others sometimes, and understand humanity to a great degree, plus I would call myself bold, confident and brave rather than grandiose- - I know my limitations. I do not feel entitled- I worked and survived hard to get where I am. I also don't care much what people think of me, and a narcissist really does. My self-esteem is not low, but not really over-inflated like a narcissist's self-esteem would be.
"Shame is a public emotion"-Dr. Ramani.
A psychopath feels no remorse for doing evil. They're everything a narcissist is except no guilt, no shame.
"A narcissist is like, "I hope no one gets hurt" -Dr. Ramani.
They say a psychopath is born and a sociopath is made, but I say that one can have a proclivity for psychopathy or sociopathy, but no one is born with a criminal mind. A sociopath probably takes longer to become one than a pscychopath, but both can start down that path at an early age from possibly a childhood trauma or traumas.
Psychopaths are believed to have slightly different autonomic nervous systems-the part that holds the sympathetic nervous system-fight or flight, but I say we all choose our own path. No one can choose it for us.
Because I am empathetic, caring, have healthy self-esteem and do not feel entitled to anything and feel guilt and shame and don't really care what others think of me that much, I am neither psychopathic, sociopathic, or narcissistic.
11:30 AM CDT
Twice now in as many or almost as many days, Junk_bow has tried to fully seduce me.
This morning she almost made me late for work. I told her "You almost made me late for work" when I discovered that once more I was being deceived. "I was trying to get you fired, s***head!" she retorted.
And I'm still having porn problems nearly every night. My life is a mess. Only God is holding it together. Can God clean it up? I believe He can if I would just cooperate with Him.
I told Jayden today that my Background Check said I'm a married man and I believed my Background Check. She said something back but I didn't catch what she said.
For the (I need to take care of the heart. Once the heart is clean, the porn and self-pleasuring will stop, then my house will get cleaner and cleaner until it's clean. I've been trying to do (And Joy has been a stickler for trying to get me to do) that process in reverse order.) last time, Maggie does NOT have the gift of Invisibility or Immateriality! I don't know what all these quaydamn knocks are at my door. Maybe its malevolent spirits wanting in and I keep letting them in. I don't think it's Maggie jumping dimensions trying to find the right 'Brent's Apartment Door' (though it is a quaint and fanciful notion, and would be interesting cool and adventurous and brave and bold if true). If that is true, it has been going on for two years now according to my neighbor, Steve, and how did my phone get from Bates City broken and nonfunctioning to my dining area table fully functional, with more space on it, and not ruined from inclement weather? The Google GPS tracker asserts the phone did travel with me all the way down the railroad tracks and down the highway to Bates City, and it WAS absolutely GONE for quite some time. And what happened to that nearly full pack of batteries I "sent" to Maggie through "the vortex that I "KNOW I went through at least once to get to the Realm of the Dead and probably to other dimensions, dimensions where the food eats you instead of the other way around and every object and shadow looks just like your wife, where the grass burns and your shoes and socks start turning literally into the stuff of said said dimension, dimensions where things feel more constricted, the sun doesn't shine in its full strength, dimensions where the Internet links act differently, loop the loo ing in one dimension and loop the lie ing in the next ( and I both predicted and observed that internet links DID indeed loop-the -lie in the next dual dimension up from the loop-the -loo dimension), or dimensions where red and white and then just white doorways appear and disappear, and the dimensions Shane (who I left a message with today, encouraging him), told me about where Lunaria is an actual country, and where there are hidden underground bunkers in Flint Michigan! Indeed to deny all this would be Ludicrous and I would have to be TRULY insane.
I'm on break. At work, I simply changed the indoor and outdoor trash, took trash and boxes out and filled the fry hopper and fry freezer, then Brady's Girlfriend Manager let me go to break. It is 11:41 AM. Last night I first cleaned my new glasses Pastor Pete was responsible for helping me get (Thank you God he helped me get them when we got them for my ID and Medicaid Card are STILL missing! David still hasn't found them AFAIK and he initially found my wallet but someone apparently stole it from his transient camp, because when his back was turned, and he came back to his camp in the woods it was gone. (Thank God winter weather hasn't setzen fÜr ihm! Oben der Señor Mein Himmelich Padre! The man should be reasonably comfortable in this relatively warm snow-free, eis-frei weather fÜr nun. Praise the Living Gott!)), then I cleaned my laptop screen reasonably well (It had an error message yesternight and I lost a lot of my Maggie/Mexico story thereby, and blew up and raged, disturbing Matthew, whom I later apologized to for making noise and stomping on his ceiling, but I rewrote the story material better and superior to the way I had told the story before; the part that I lost, and it lacked no significant part of what was lost, but had better additional parts as well and at least two major improvements, detail-wise.) and then cleaned my phone screen, cracks and all. I go back to work at 11:56 AM. I did not bring my laptop (I LOVE the power of prayer and the Authority of Jesus' Name available to the Believer and also to the Latter Day Saint, so underutilized in all Christendom. They are weapons more powerful than a Hydrogen Bomb, than the biggest Death Star, than Starkiller Base 1+2, than Hoblee, Hobleer, than the entire Dark Side of the Force!) or my telephone to work today. I plan on going straight to QuikTrip (A convenience store, where I saw Colt, who might come over later today, who pointed out to me where the air pump was because i had forgotten where it was, and I met his friend) and put air into my back tire (I think either the inner-tube, or the tire, or both are leaking and need to be replaced. I've been having to fill them up very often lately.),biking straight to my house, and calling Taylor Brady (actually, I did not. Steve Job from Comprehensive MHS Case Management Services called me and set me up wit transportation by way of a woman named Madison (who should call me either later today or tomorrow morning) to get to my appointment with Traci tomorrow late morning, since I called Beverly but she did not answer and her voice mailbox had not yet been set up for taking messages. Steve told me that Taylor should be back in town next week (two weeks of Book of Boba Fett to coincide with my Mexico/Maggie story in yet another way but more on that later)), , then Beverly (which all happened in the way I just recited to you) today. After that (After that I called Shane, left a message, and talked to Master Raz on discord about character creation, character wikis, loadouts and skill modifiers and was disappointed when I found my character who is a Force user is barred in the Dark Brotherhood's roleplays from using the Force just because he happens to be a smuggler. Father, correct this injustice. Amen. After I talk on the phone, I'd like to eat supper, then forget whatever Star Wars streaming I have scheduled. I'm tired. I stayed up practically all night last night, but I must not slumber, nor give sleep to my eyelids until tonight, for Junk_bow awaits, waiting to seduce, but when I'm very tired I'll be too tired to be seduced by her and just fall fast asleep on my MyPillow, and I'll get all the sleep I need tonight after Mittilenacht. From 5:23- 6:30 PM I will work on my Diary Project while I sup and at the same time listen to more of The Dark Tower 7: The Dark Tower, then take my pills and supplements and hurry down on my Trusty Steed Ol' Blue to WallyWorld, where I hab eine bell-ringing appointment to keep @7 PM sharp-9 PM sharp. When I get home from my appointment, I want to devote half my time until Midnight listening to the Dark Tower 7:The Dark Tower while doing my Diary Project and half my time until Midnight reading first from the Book of Mormon, and then starting The Science of Star Wars, giving it an unbiased reading, but keeping in mind all of what I know to be true about each subject covered in the book, praying for discernment, and ready to learn about each subject covered in the book that I either know little, only some or nothing about.
At midnight, I wish to brush, floss and hit the sacky-poo.
Also, at 10:30 PM, I will check the St. Michael discord server for Moderation issues, for it is my duty as a Mod to do so. I need to set my clock alarm for that time tonight.
No gaming today. Why game every day?
So I have m'day planned oot.
I'll write about details later or important happenings or conversations I have with people. Ciou. 4 minutes 'til Time. (finished typing all this at 5:37 PM CDT. Now I will make sup, eat it, do my Diary Project until 6:30 PM CDT, set my clock alarm to 10:30 PM as the time I will serve as my Moderator function, and listen to Dark Tower.
7:21 PM
When I got to my bell-ringing appointment, I saw that no one was there and there was no red kettle and I realized all-too-late (and rather mistakenly) that I had "forgotten to call Jessica back and confirm that I would be available tonight to bell-ring." I walked around the store and talked to my Mexican friend Juan for the second time today and directions to his restaurant in Lone Jack, El Pisa, beside Sonic, to the Left coming off of PP Highway, behind the gas station, and I met Myles, a WalMart Associate who was a Star Wars fan, and gave him my Mara/Luke4ever website address. I had called Jessica but her VoiceMail Box is not set up yet.
Around 7:33 PM CDT, I got my first positive feedback for Star Wars Episode 12: Rise of The Jedi from Manger Malinda. She loved it, and loved the ending.
Jessica stopped bell-ringing on Dec. 24, Christmas Eve, and I heard older messages, asking me to come in to bell-ring, thinking Jessica was talking about tonight.
I picked up a straw wrapper here at Walmart. Thank You God, for straw wrappers.
8:16 PM CDT
As I listen to Dark Tower 7, I think about my 4 day ultimatum I gave God to bring Maggie back into my life in 4 days 4 Days ago, God gave me three signs that, although it probably will not be today, God would deliver on his promises, relating two of the signs to my Mexico/Maggie story, and the third a double-sign. The first sigul or sign was the double-sign. Simultaneously, there was a dead-ringer for Maggie Savoie and a white pickup trup going by in the McDonald's parking lot. The second sign was my Mexican friend Juan showing up in my life twice today, mimicrying the Mexican Work in my story and its Prophet John. The third sigul was another mimicry of my Mexico/Maggie story-in the story yesterday I wrote that I got Popeyes coupons in the mail, and when I got my mail today after work, expecting nothing in particular, it was Popeyes coupons! I exulted God loudly, praising him, and shouting 'Hallelulia!'.
There was a forth, more subtle sigul, and it was deep--in the story I had written myself a particularly laborious workday, and today that came to pass, making the power of my soul equal, or almost equal, to the power my the imagination, at least in this instance. I sought for none of these signs, and it was God's way of getting out of my Ultimatum, as his three rainbow signs in one day had more than once, at least twice in fact.
God will deliver on his promises, but I have to wait just...a little bit....long..er.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Dec 28, 2021 9:22:23 GMT -6
12/28-
TUESDAY
In my dream, a Minister of God severely chastened, rebuked and corrected me, then Jesus stared into my eyes, then kissed me on the mouth, smiling.
12:32 PM
I am eating refried beans.
My appointment with Traci Wentz went well. The male nurse who saw me first asked me basic questions about my life and mental health, and weighed me. (about 168 lbs) and took my bloodpressure (it was good), then Traci didn't change or increase my meds, but kept them the same. She was friendly, and we discussed giraffes, because she had a picture of two cartoon giraffes, one wearing heart-shaped glasses, one shorter one wearing round glasses, on her left wall by her desk. A woman named Madison gave me a ride there and back, another Case Manager, but not mine.
12:50 PM
I'm eating a peanut bu t t er, coconut oil and sweet orange marmalade sandwich.
I need to get my Meds from Wal*Mart.
Ciou.
1:53 PM
I'm eating cranberries.
After Wal~Mart, I went to Rick's, talked with him for a few minutes as we caught each other up on our lives, then came home and will now start a YouTube stream.
Someone on Imagicmaker's Fanoverse discord server (Person 1) said, on — 01/15/2021
Any ideas for jedi trials?
Someone said (Person 2), on — 01/15/2021
Hmm I recommend looking for videos of what the Jedi order taught interns of tests only kind of trial I can come up with is how yoda sent Luke into the cave
imagic maker — 01/15/2021
So I have written trials before and I kind of combine them with Ilum and the Cave on Dagobah
someone else said (Person 1) — 01/15/2021
I'm not familiar with Ilum? I don't think
imagic maker — 01/15/2021
Ilum is the planet in Clone Wars and Fallen order where the Jedi get the Kyber Crystals
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it is the rite of passage of a youngling to padawan (edited)
someone said (Person 2) — 01/15/2021
They take the Padawans there to choose a crystal and they construct their lightsaber
imagic maker — 01/15/2021
However I like to have different Jedi Enclaves... I placed one on The planet of Almas in one of my stories where the Jedi Padawan's trial was to find trapped spirit within the dark fortress there so that he and his master could free it
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or she
[11:01 PM]
but in this case it was a male padawan
Someone said (Person 1) — 01/15/2021
Oh right!
I said, — Today at 3:06 PM
Illum was converted to StarKiller Base I and destroyed in TFA
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The Story of StarKiller Base II's demise is rather interesting. There were a whole lot of planet killing weapons on the offensive and on the defensive in that battle
[3:10 PM]
It took more than one Death Star/Hope Star beam to destroy the large StarKiller Base II planet that had devastated the surface of Coruscant. Starkiller Base I had destroyed five planets in the Hosnian Prime system, Coruscant and Chandrilla NOT among them. (edited)
4:03 PM
I am streaming. I made a shopping list for tomorrow's shopping trip where I will get spending money:
*PAM
*BBQ Sauce
*BBQ Brush
*Ice cream *Milk *Juice
*7 Bags Uncle Ben's Ready Rice
*Noodles-2 Boxes
* 2 Mayo
*Diary
*Ragu
*Cream of Celery-5
*Cream of chicken-5
*Shred. Cheese-3
*Oreo Cookies
I now have 66 XP in Clan Odan-Urr from writing and getting approved my Grik Spiceminer Chronicle, here. Before that, I had 33 XP. Today I took a survey on Dark Brotherhood where I expressed my desire for Force use to be open to all characters whose players desired it for them.
6:22 PM
I ate a four egg omelette and took my pills.
I'm such an anomoly in life. I don't fit in anywhere.
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Post by BrentKoivopolo888 on Dec 29, 2021 0:10:22 GMT -6
12/29-
WEDNESDAY
Brent"study36"FinalWarning"KoivV — Yesterday at 2:07 PM
My Dear Pearl, How are you? You haven't written me since September but I am very grateful for the third chance you gave me. Your sister Shelly hasn't said anything to me either for a while.
[2:13 PM]
Would you join me for lunch today? Or dinner? I know a Chinese place in Oak Grove with a good buffet.
[2:13 PM]
We can go to my house afterward and watch movies
She didn't respond.
So satan tried to step in and tempt me with another girl or woman:
Brent"study36"FinalWarning"KoivV — Yesterday at 10:37 PM
Hello, there is a female friend I'm playing Albion with but I am looking to recruit her for my Guild. I hope you can play Albion too, its fun. I love you, Mags.
~Your Brently
December 29, 2021
Brent"study36"FinalWarning"KoivV — Today at 12:06 AM
I told her about an hour ago that I had a girlfriend/ and/or wife named Maggie and we finished the dungeon and I told her it was nice meeting her and ciou and she said bye bye. She's a good fighter- a healer. I would much rather play Albion with you than her. The only reason I stuck with her so long fighting in dungeons is because I thought there was a chance she could be you. Satan whispered in my ear but I only halfway believed his lies, then when I thought she was you I told her how to connect with me on PalTalk, discord and YouTube but I have you and you are all I want. Now that I know she's not you (satan told me at one point Maggie was not real and this girl was God's blessing) (A lie I only half believed because I haven't heard from you in months and have no real proof it is you because Shelly won't confirm it and five people already have pretended they were you.) But you are the only woman I need, Maggie.
Jabez faced his fears last night. He faced his mirror.
1:58 PM
My Dad didn't call to wish me a Merry Christmas, nor my Mom, nor my half sister, nor my half brother! Am I dead to them in this world?
2:05 PM
Last night, though everything was telling me to look at porn, God was telling me in a voice so low I could not hear him not to do it and I listened to His Voice, said "I don't HAVE to look at porn" and went to bed.
In Dreamland I went to a Layer where Maggie was my wife but she had forgotten me and married a polygamous husband and had four small children with him, but I had gotten my position as her husband back and connected with her kids, being a father to them, but her wrongful husband got jealous and tried to kill me and I accidentally killed him in self-defense.
In this reality of now, she is totally single and lives in Bates City, probably either not knowing she is my wife, or knowing it but waiting until the right time to come back into my life.
In other Layers of Dreamland I married Johanna and she's still alive.
But in this dimension either my parents are grieving my death or they just neglected to call or text me a Merry Christmas message.
I called Dad. He had thought I was going to call him on Christmas. I had called Mom around that time. I need to call her tomorrow. It's her birthday.
I slept all day and only ate one meal: Most of a bowl of noodles and Vienna sausages. I couldn't finish it, and will never try to eat such a dish again.
All day I fantasized about Maggie and life with her.
I took a really good shower, washing head to toe.
I missed Church because I listened to the wrong voice. One Voice told me to call for a ride to Church no later than 5 PM. The other voice told me Maggie would be here today at or around 5 PM. She wasn't.
At the end of the day, I kicked all the demons and other evil entities out of mine, Maggie's and my friends' lives and out of my apartment in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
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