DIARY I OF BRENT-DELUSION FREE

1997 AD



05/06-
TUESDAY



Today is the first day in writing my First Real Diary, after some of my School Diaries and Brent's Records. Many things will be taught and spoken of during the course of this scant reconstructed Diary, but it should not always stay that way forever and will likely see many changes and alterations and added comments and outgrowths and additional words and entries, dates added to undated entries and complete transformation of entries or entire diaries, or the addition or insertion of entirely new records, diaries, logs and journals, sometimes breaking up existing records into two or three separate records or more, might be the case as early as in the Kingdom of God on Earth, in Zion. This is NOT like the word of God that is unchangeable or unalterable. This is the word of man, into which more and more truths, knowledge, facts and additional insights and comments can be added constantly, not just by my future wife and I but by many others over time, and many subjects will be covered in my journal over time as I grow and mature, and eternally progress and am eternally refined.  As these journals progress, more and more mature subject matter and stronger, meatier language will be employed.  I will soon work in my portfolio, filled with my cartoons and drawings. We are starting a weather unit in my General Studies class, 6th hour(in Jr. High)). My dad (The first part of my name I reveal is Sohlden on pg. 28. (of my original yellow diary, now lost until they are restored to me.)) (The second part of my name I reveal is Brent on pg. 92. (of my original yellow diary, now lost until they are restored to me.))
had been reading The Lord of the Rings to me for a long time. Now he is reading me The Chronicals of Tohmas Covenent The Unbeliever. He is just getting into the second book. It is now 7:37 and my half-sister is watching Rugrats on the groundbreaking television network Nickelodion.


 
In Mrs. Martz's First Hour English Class, we are reading a book called The Lottery Rose. In the book, a boy named Georgie Burgess who is abused by his mother and his mother's boyfriend, Steve, wins a rosebush in a store lottery. It is a great book. It is based on reality. In the book, Georgie Burgess, the boy who is abused, wins a rosebush in a store lottery. We do worksheets in class based on the book.  It is easy. The book is based on reality, or, in other words, very realistic. In this class I learned the meaning of the word personification where a character in a book can be an inanimate object, such as the rosebush in The Lottery Rose or the Rifle in the gun control agenda book The Rifle.



In Ms. Jacobus's 2'd period Maths class, we are doing a Unit on Intergers. I find it to be easy. In Science class, we are doing a unit on the environment. We have had to draw many pictures. I believe that my drawing skills were improved during the course of the science class. I had to draw 29 of one particular animal or plant. I chose cats (my favorite animal), and I drew them carefully, trying to make them as real as possible. I also had to do quite a few other assignments that involved drawing. Once, in that class, me and a girl had to make sculptures out of pieces of Garbage. We needed to use each other's pieces to create our two sculptures. She made a bird feeder and I made a bottle man. We had to do a sculpture with five pieces of garbage. My partner provided some other pieces of garbage that I used. We might as well have been working separate1: She made a bird feeder. I made a bottle man. Well this has been a very long entry so I will stop writing. I will try to write every day. There are still tons of things to write about and they will be told throughout the course of my journal.

05/08-
WEEK 19-DAY 2-THURSDAY



It is not what is gone-it is what is left behind.



The Illearth War is the second book in the first chronicals of Tohmas Covenent. (The First and Second Chronicles of Thomas Covenant The Unbeliever by Stephen Reeder Donaldson) Bye. (Wasn't very long, was it?)(Lord Foul's Bane is the first book of the First Chronicles-BLSKJ"study3600""FinalWarning"V)

06/09-
WEEK 23-DAY 06-MONDAY

    Sorry I haven't written in a while.  School ended.  I went to a thrift store called Giants and got some Pogs, Then I went to Frankenmouth (Frankenmuth).  In Frankenmuth, there were a lot of stores, filled with neat stuff.  I got some pogs there, too at Scott's Stuff.  Every building in Frankenmuth was awesome.  There was a big mall that used to be a school! Me, my half-sister, my stepmother, and my sister's aunt walked from store to store. Near the end, we came to a store,



with an Italian Alpine Village Display. It was a bunch of very detailed clay figures, each doing different things, as if they had minds of their own. It was beutiful. The display was circulated around the Events that took place on the 6’th day of Christmas. Normally, it would have cost money, but that day, it was free.



The last stop was a Christmas store. Everything there was mechanical, except for a few things. (Bronners.)



The next day, we went to an openhouse and I met some relatives. We played games and ate food. Also yesterday, we planted seeds in the garden and watered them. Today, I went to the Detroit Zoo. I like the Spider monkeys.



Bye.

 UNDATED ENTRY (PUT UNDER SEPTEMBER)

From memory:

(I pray with students around the flagpole.)

              When I say 'pray' I don't pray to God per se but to some upper entity who could be Zeus for all I know.

Comment: This was back around 1998/ early '99.  I will never forget those words I wrote or the way in which I came to a basic belief in God, THE God of the Bible and His Christ, and to mentally assent to thinking for 21 years that I had Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, and details, sketchy as they may be, and how that head knowledge became heart knowledge and I became a True believer in a three year process 2019-2021. I went to a Bible Study in my Sophomore year but this only made me a believing practical pagan.  I thought I was basically a good kid.  I didn't drink, smoke and was a virgin as I still am in 2021 AD (which was, in 1999, to my way of thinking, the key to living a good life, that and a doing and avoiding a few other things.)  I wasn't at the time concerned with heaven, hell or salvation, and knew absolutely nothing of the higher things of God, such as Zion or Celestial Glory.  I remember that it was that year that I read the first 40 chapters of Genesis in my Grandma Marge's old blue King James Bible.  I also checked a bible out of the high school library to use at the Bible study, which was after hours at my High School at 2:15 PM on the upstairs floor, just after the end of sixth period.   At first I kind of mentallty assented to the lessons being taught at the lawyer's Bible study, although I was not nearly as discerning as Mike's other student, Maggie Savoie, who could easily detect the liberal leanings in Mike Thomas's brand of Theology. I just assented to all of it, enjoying the insightful teaching, but never truly believed or had Christ in my heart , even after I was baptized twice, until October of 2019 AD. (or at least all these years I had thought I had been led in the Sinner's prayer by a man named Wade, until a dream I had in 2019 revealed this did not happen, and I first truly received Christ with the conviction I needed to in October of 2019, 21 years after 1999 AD). In 1999 AD, while I was attending that Pure Fire Bible Study, Dad opened a letter sent by Mike the lawyer that stated that Mike was going to pray for a man to suffer until he turned to Christ, which there was nothing at all wrong with, but Dad made a big bruhaha out of the matter, telling me the Bible study was a cult as Mike told me the RLDS was cultish (My Dad or my father Lee Allen Sohlden is a good man who was not bad because of his misunderstanding, but was only looking out for my best interests.). I submitted an article to the school paper promising repercussions if not printed, and a group of misguided but well meaning teens ganged up on me and told me some "Christian" purist things and told me the article was offensive (which it certainly was and I am sorry for writing it) and handed me a tract, which a well meaning atheist told me I shouldn't let them shove such sh-- down my throat, then he handed  the tract back to me, and the tract ran something like this:

THE FOUR SPIRITUAL LAWS

1) God loves you and offers a wonderful  plan for your life.

2) Man is sinful and separated from God.  Therefore, he cannot know and experience God's love and plan for his life.

GOD
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_____________________________

MAN

MAN WITH CHRIST


GOD
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MAN'S EFFORTS WITHOUT CHRIST

(Jesus brings men to His Father)

3) Jesus Christ is God's only provision for man's sin. Through Him you can know and experience God's love and plan for youre life.


4) We must individually receive  Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord; then we can know and experience God's love and plan for our lives.(-©1965-2013 Bill Bright. All Rights Reserved. I claim FAIR USE for transformative purposes.-BLSKJ"study3600""FinalWarning"V)


, which I do believe in now.  My grandmother, Marge Sohlden, put doubt in my heart by telling me this was wrong, then men paid for their own sins and that the Bible was written by men (My grandmother, Marjorie May (Lehman) Sohlden was a good woman with a good heart who just had some doubts, which did not make her a bad woman.).  Despite all this I kept going to the group where I asked a man named Wade some questions once and he gave me a personal NIV Bible and I developed a false memory of him leading me in the sinner's prayer which never really happened with the conviction that I needed it until 2019 AD, in October, 13 years after my first True Baptism and Confirmation in November 2005.  As a consequence of playing the part of Believer, I, as would my half sister later, though Dad was well meaning,  received persecution from my dad.  But I forgave him.  I was very overzealous, and my dad did help me in my semibelieving walk by drilling into me the law of love (the greatest commandment and the second) and protecting me from believing that satan was good and God was bad by rebuking me sharply the very brief time I thought this. (Also see Letter of Aristeas 1:26-BLSKV.)
 Later Dad tried teaching me how to tithe properly, and from 2009-2015 he took me to many churches, and also a few times to two RLDS Church branches of the Restoration Brach Movement in Michigan, and to my Grandma Marge Sohlden's Memorial Service at the Clio Rd. Community of Christ in Vassar Michigan, the new location of the Westwood Congregation that my grandparents Wil and Marge Sohlden used to take my half sister and I to as children, where my Grandfather, Toivo Wilfred Sohlden Koivopolo III, ordained as a Priest in 1966 and later superannuated, served as a Minister.  The  Memorial Service was beautiful and Spirit filled and I reconciled with a woman I had once wronged there.

                                                                             1997 CONT'D

05/10-
WEEK 19, DAY 4- DAY 7 OF THE WEEK-SABBATH-SATURN'S DAY-SATURDAY


Today, I went to the Farmers’ Market. [in Flint]



I had to carry huge branches to my Grandma’s house for a while today. In the end, I ended up helping Dad load up the wheelbarrow



[Four-leaf clover : 9/13/06

Now at: Grandma Sohlden’s house, in: a medicine bottle.](as of 2004. Now lost as of 10/17/ 2018 –B.L.S.)



It is the second one I’ve found but I’ve seen many since then. The first one I found I did not preserve (laminate) and it quickly wilted. I found it at the same place as the second one (Dad’s front yard [Joy and her husband's yard had them, both big and small, and was full of the legendary clovers back when Noah, Nephi and Nathaniel, my three cousins, were still young boys.-Brent Sohlden 07/28/2019 15:31]). Joy and her husband's yard was once full of four-leaf clovers. I published, years before observing that fact, a photocopy of the second four-leaf clover I had kept and preserved in the a Newsletter I helped out on somewhere in Michigan, to prove to everyone the legend was real.-06-25,7-28-2019 AD)]

with small sticks. I had hamburgers for dinner. My Grandma’s back yard [property] is huge. She owns a lot of property. She has some woods, a garden, and a place where sticks have been thrown for years. Ever since I can remember, Grandma had put sticks in her back yard [behind her back yard, in the woods]. The sticks have come from her house and Dad’s house. She also has a treehouse built on her property by some boys who thought that it was their property. Bye.

05/13-

TUESDAY





I made the final copies of the cartoons I drew yesterday. Later, I will see my half-sister'’s school concert. Grandma will be there, too. Bye.

05/15-
WEEK 20, DAY 2-THURSDAY



I drew two new cartoons for my portfolio. Bye.

05/20-
WEEK 20, DAY 7-TUESDAY





My dad is starting a garden in grandma’s back yard [field]. Dad says the garden will be 40 ft. by 40 ft. He will grow 16 different things. Cucumbers, squash, corn, Green beans, Lettuce, Carrots, peas, pumpkins, cantelope, onions, and other things.

05/25-
WEEK 21, DAY 5-DAY 1 OF THE WEEK-LORD’S DAY, SABAOTH



I forgot to write for a few days. I went to grandmas yesterday, and continued a game of kickball with Grandma’s neighbor, my neighbor's son. The score is 17(me) to 23. He also came over here, and we played a game of soccer. (I forgot the score) Also, I drew another cartoon in my portfolio.



- The Grim Reaper is sitting in front of the T.V. watching Days of our deaths. Bye.

05/27-
WEEK 21, DAY 6-MONDAY





TUESDAY



I have to do a presentation tomorrow. I am #19. I have to clean up. Bye.

06/01
SABAOTH, LORD’S DAY





Yesterday, I was at grandma’s all day. We went to a garage sale, and got some free toys today. I got some free books. Bye.

                                                       2000 AD



Location: Dad’s and Mom’s (stepmother’s) house , Flint, MI





5/09-

TUESDAY-DAY 158



(PAGE 1518.)

My neighbor's son gave me a bunch of Hardy Boys books today. Now I officially own 29 Hardy Boys books:

Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys ;

Danger Down Under

['/' to right of title indicates I have read since I wrote in my journal in 2000 AD]



Original series;

The Sinister Signpost

Footprints under the window

The Mystery of the Melted Coins

\The Ghost at Skeleton Rock

The Clue of the Broken Blade

The Secret of Wildcat Swamp

The Voodoo Plot/

Day of the Dinosaur/

\Cross Country crime

\Trial and Terror



Hardy Boys casefiles;

\Dead on Target

Trouble in the Pipeline

Collision Course

Countdown to Terror

Final cut/

Thick as Thieves

\The Dead Season

The Deadliest Dare/

Running on Empty /?

Without a Trace

Diplomatic Deceit /?



Blood Money / ?

\Terror on Track (PAGE 1516.)

\ Mission: Mayhem

A Taste for Terror/

Law of the Jungle/

Bad Chemistry/

Sky High/





Some other ones I know I finished (that I didn't own then):



Casefiles:

Danger in the Fifth Dimension/

Original Series:



The Racecar one that I read to my Golden Retriever/Irish Setter Mix Red while in my garage at Dad and Grandma's house between 2009-2015 while I was waiting for pizza delivery./



The one about Dieche's Shield/

The Apeman's Secret/

The Serpent Tooth's Mystery/

Crusade of the Flaming Sword/



Nancy Drew:

While the Clock Ticked/

The Clew in The Attic/

So good I read it a second time:

Dead on Target/