04/18--
TUESDAY
1:27 AM
For the past couple of hours I have been engaged in spiritual warfare.
1:38 PM
My telephone interview, which was a couple minutes after 11:31 AM, went great! They want me to go down to the bank and open up my own bank account and my application to become my own Payee has been formally filed.
Tomorrow I need to open up a bank account.
I visited my friend Rick today and told him the good news.
I spent a little time on TikTok today, and I visited with my neighbor Steve a bit.
There was a guy on The Crew on discord whom I thought was a girl and that I thought was Maggie who told me point blank he wasn't Maggie. Only later in the day did I learn he was a guy so couldn't possibly be by any stretch of the imagination.
I saw a rainbow fidget spinner or pinwheel on the ground on my walk today.
6:19 PM CDT
Me to Jacki 5:45 PM
blsohlden — Today at 12:28 AM
Stress. You must be going through so much stress right now. I know what it's like. But I don't feel it yet like you do because you have a lot of responsibility
[12:29 AM]
I thought a girl was someone I knew because her personality was similar to what I had imagined her personality to be. Turns out I was wrong. Arson Cat is not Maggie.
[12:29 AM]
Maggie (the real one) did show up on my doorstep the other day. However I was too slow to open the door and she left.
[12:30 AM]
I have been a hypocrite and prideful sometimes. Job 20 something convicted me of my hypocrisy and a part of a book I read brought me into the depths of humility, reminding me of way I've been prideful.
[12:31 AM]
I asked God to forgive me for my sins in dust and ashes on my face before Him
[12:31 AM]
And last night I went through about two hours of spiritual warfare
[12:32 AM]
How has your life been?
Right now, until 7:30 when Rick will take me out to Subway to eat supper with him there, I'm watching Right Now Media gospel talks by a man about 6 pop philosophies that affect us the most.
(All wrong).
1.) Whenever God closes a door, He opens a window.
The truth: God opens doors. He closes doors. When he closes a door, he may open another one, but he certainly does not always. Trials, troubles, heartache and pain make us more like Jesus. God does make ways, but sometimes He will allow us to endure our wilderness times.
Hebrews 11:36-38.
Proverbs 3:5-6.
Trust Him. Entrust our lives to Him. Know the Lord intimately. (With the Heart)
Psalm 9:10 Those who know Your Name will trust in You.
Knowing Him comes from spending time with Him in prayer and in His Word.
Continue to have faith when He closes doors.
Response: I prayed that God would open some doors in my life concerning friends and helping people and that He would give me new, progressive thinking friends.
I prayed that God would close every door that shouldn't be open in my life and that He would shake everything in my life that needs to be shaken.
2.) You're never more safe than when you're in the will of God.
Truth: Sometimes the most dangerous place you can be is in the will of God.
2 Corinthians 11:25-28
We've bought in to the idea that Christians are not supposed to have trials or hardships.
But it's a lie.
Matthew 10:16-19 (KJV) (ESV)
(14-22 IV)
Luke 14:26-33 (ESV) (KJV)
(26-34 IV)
Broken by your circumstances, feeling sorry for yourself- not the way to live, not how Paul lived.
When Paul signed up to follow Jesus, he was signing up for a battle.
In premarital counseling, when going into marriage, when expectations are up here and reality down here, there is a frustration gap going into marriage. Expectations must match reality.
